X-Files M/K An AU in another time
Title: Interrogation VI: A New Beginning Author: Orithain and
Rating: NC-17 for bad language, violence and m/m sex.
Archive to Allslash, Archive X, TER/MA, All Things Rat, Amothea's
Series/Sequel: Sequel to Interrogation I, II, IIa, III, IV and
The entire Interrogation Series can be found at http://members.tripod.com/~ter_ma
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Disclaimer: They don't belong to us, they belong to Chris Carter,
1013 Productions and Fox. Please don't sue us.
Summary: The conclusion to Mulder & Krycek's journey, with
some bumps along the way.
Comments: Angst, schmoop and good food - it's all here. Thank
you to Sue for the psychological help. Thanks to Aries for encouragement.
Mulder and Krycek emerged from the ship's hold to breathe in fresh
air for the first time in three weeks. The warm night air greeted
them, and a gentle breeze kissed their cheeks as they walked along
the deck. The deck was a bustle of activity, the ship's hands
busy unloading the hold of it's cargo. Not wanting to prolong
their stay, Mulder & Krycek silently walked down the gangplank
and off the ship.
They made their way down the dock, various other ships loading
and unloading cargo. When they had made their way through the
cartons and crates, they found themselves at a street with a church
on the corner. Alex stopped under a streetlight and got a piece
of paper out of his bag. This had directions and a map on it.
"We turn right and walk down this street two kilometres until
we get to a square. We meet our contact at a café called
El Matador. That should not be hard, hmmm?" He looked at
Mulder who had an uncertain look on his face.
"Hey," Alex grabbed Mulder's hand and squeezed it for
a second before letting go. "We are free. We have just begun
a new life, don't be sad."
Mulder took a deep breath and smiled as cheerfully as he could
back at Alex. He didn't feel right, something was wrong. Still,
he walked alongside Alex, down the street to the square. People
passed by them, enjoying a walk; couples in love, basking in the
night air. Mulder's head turned this way and that, his heart racing.
He was waiting for someone to stop them, to arrest them for escaping.
Alex looked at his lover, noticing his distress. "Fox, are
Mulder smiled weakly. //I don't know where I am. This place is
so different, so foreign. What if the Nazis followed us here?
What if the Americans find me and arrest me for being a traitor?//
Mulder's breathing began to quicken, and sweat formed on his brow.
Alex recognized his lover's anxiety, and led Mulder over to a
bench situated off the street. They sat down, and Alex took Mulder's
hands in his and turned to face him.
"Fox. Fox, look at me."
Mulder gulped a breath and looked into his lover's eyes. The light
from the streetlamps made them shine in the semi-darkness. He
wanted to go back to their house in Germany; things were good
there; they should have never escaped, they would have been safe;
he was sure of that.
"Fox, I want you to calm down."
Mulder gulped air in again, beginning to hyperventilate.
Alex squeezed Mulder's hands and spoke calmly. "Fox, relax.
If you don't relax, you are going to pass out." Alex was
shocked at Mulder's reaction, though he hid it well. He'd known
that he'd totally broken Mulder's confidence as he had done to
so many others over the years that he was in charge of the prison,
but this was the first time he had to face the results of his
actions. The fact that it was the man he loved falling apart just
from walking down a public street only made it harder for him.
Mulder nodded his head, and tried in vain to keep his breathing
under control. He concentrated on his breaths, making them deeper
and lasting longer.
"Good, good. Now close your eyes."
Mulder whimpered in panic and shook his head.
"Close your eyes, I won't let go of you." Mulder still
hesitated, terrified, and Alex whispered, "Trust me."
Mulder closed his eyes, but his breathing was still quick. He
clenched Alex's hands in his own, squeezing them so hard that
"I want you to imagine a place. A place where only you can
go to be safe."
"C-c-can you be there too?"
"No. This is just your place. You can go there, and nothing
will hurt you." Alex had to struggle to keep his voice from
breaking when Mulder's question showed that despite everything
he associated safety with him. He vowed to undo what he had done
and only prayed that Mulder would be able to forgive him. He tried
not to think about the possibility that a strong, healthy Mulder
might not want anything to do with him.
Mulder's breathing slowly started to ease.
"Now. You are in your place, your safe place. Do you like
it, Fox? Is it a nice place?"
"Yes. It's...it's warm and it feels good."
"Good. Now, I want you to slow your breathing and relax.
Can you do that for me, Fox?"
"Yes. I think I can." Mulder concentrated on breathing
slowly in his safe place. This was good. After a few minutes,
he started to release the deathgrip he had on Alex's hands.
"Relax, Fox. Relax your head, your neck, your shoulders.
That's it. Feel yourself relaxing. Your lungs are opening up,
taking large, healthy breaths of air, your back muscles are unwinding.
Good, that's my Fox. Nothing is going to hurt you. We are safe
now, no one is going to harm you."
Mulder opened his eyes and looked at his lover. "Do you promise?"
"I promise." He squeezed Mulder's hands again before
getting out his handkerchief and wiping Mulder's face of sweat.
He had never counted on this, on Mulder being so afraid. He would
have to work on that later.
"I'm...I'm sorry, I don't know what came over me. We were
walking down the street, and then I just started feeling funny."
"It's to be expected, Fox. You have not been out in the world
for some time." Alex pushed a lock of hair back that had
fallen forward onto Mulder's forehead, pressing a quick kiss against
the skin. "Do you think you can continue? We do not have
far to go. When we get to the café, we will have some wine,
Mulder nodded, the sweat on his body starting to dry in the night
breeze. Slowly, they stood and continued their journey down the
street. A few minutes later, they reached the square and the café.
They sat down, and a waiter came over to their table. Alex ordered
for them in flawless Spanish. Mulder looked at his lover in awe;
this man's talents never ceased to amaze him.
Alex fumbled for a cigarette, then offered one to Mulder.
"No thanks," he whispered.
"Are you sure?"
Mulder nodded his head. He looked around. Argentina looked like
a nice place. Good looking people everywhere, strolling around
without a care in the world. It was hard to believe that war still
raged across most of the world. The waiter came with two glasses
of red wine. Alex picked his up right away and sipped it, his
eyes closing for a minute.
"Mmmmmm, I've missed wine. Come, Fox, drink, it's very good."
Mulder reached out and brought the fragile glass to his lips,
noticing he was shaking slightly. He took a small sip of wine,
"Well? Was I right?"
"Yes, it's very good."
"Are you sure you don't want a cigarette?"
"No, thank you."
Alex reached over and grabbed his hand again, stroking it with
his thumb. "I meant it when I said nothing can harm you here.
We are an ocean away from what we left behind."
Mulder wanted to believe Alex, but he still had a nagging suspicion
in the back of his mind that something was not right. They sat
there, sipping their wine, enjoying the night. Mulder was just
starting to fully relax when a man came to their table.
Alex stood and shook his hand. "Sir, so nice to see you again."
The man looked down at Mulder then back at Alex. "You have
brought someone with you?"
"Yes. I could not leave him behind."
Mulder's pulse began to quicken again as the man sat down and
joined them. He felt dizzy, and his breathing sped up.
"Fox?" Alex tightened his grip on Mulder's hand. "Fox,
are you not well?"
"I'm...I'm okay. It must be the wine; it's going to my head."
"Why don't you close your eyes for a moment and regain your
Mulder nodded and closed his eyes. He thought back to what Alex
had said earlier about his safe place. He imagined himself there,
alone, at peace. He felt warm and started to calm down.
"Is your friend all right, Alex?"
"Yes, he is just a little shaken from our journey, as am
I. It was a most -- eventful -- voyage, but he will be fine once
he is rested."
"You should have told me you were bringing a companion, I
would have prepared documents for him."
"I am sorry, it was...we left in haste." Alex took a
sip of his wine to take the bitterness out of his mouth. He would
never forgive himself for almost leaving Mulder behind. He looked
back up at his friend. "Will it be any trouble to get him
"It should not be a problem, but it might take a few weeks."
"That will be more than adequate. Thank you."
The man slid two envelopes across the table to Alex. "One
envelope contains money, the other your papers. Your funds will
be transferred from the bank in Switzerland upon your request.
The other envelope contains name of the bank and the manager there.
Do not talk to anyone else about your situation."
Alex nodded his head.
"In the meantime, I have taken the liberty and booked you
into a suite at one of Buenos Aires' finest hotels. I will give
you a few days to rest, then I will have some houses for you to
"Thank you again for all your help, I could have not done
this without you."
"That's what friends are for, Alex. I will, however, require
a favor next month. I have someone that will need a place to stay
for a few days."
Alex nodded his head, "Yes, anything, just ask."
Mulder opened his eyes. He had missed the entire conversation,
but he was glad both men were smiling at each other.
Alex turned and smiled at his lover. "Ah, he is with us once
again." Taking Mulder's hand in his, Alex motioned from his
friend to Mulder and performed the introductions, "This is
my lover, Fox Mulder. Fox, an old friend of my father's, Malcolm
"It is an honour to meet you, Mr. Mulder." He reached
across and shook his hand. "I hope you enjoy your new home
here in Argentina."
"Thank you," Mulder said, his voice just above a whisper.
"Now, gentlemen, if you would gather your belongings and
follow me, I will take you to your hotel."
They followed the man with the silver hair and smooth voice to
a grand hotel. A red carpet stairway led to golden embossed doors,
which were opened by a doorman dressed in top hat and tails. This
led to a large, marble-floored lobby, laid with Persian rugs and
expensive furnishings. The warm red richness of mahogany was prevalent
throughout, from the front desk to the staircase banister. A young
man sat at a grand piano in one corner, playing to entertain the
people as they came and went.
A lady in a fur coat, despite the heat, passed Mulder and Krycek,
a man behind her carrying a small poodle wearing a diamond-studded
collar that matched her bracelet. The other patrons of this establishment
were also well dressed, making Mulder feel like he was a pauper.
They checked in and went up to their suite, the decor was equally
grand; marble floors, Louis XIV furnishings, velvet draperies.
If Mulder wasn't in South America, he could have sworn that he
was in one of the finest hotels in Europe. The silver-haired man
tipped the bellhop, who quickly left the room.
"I will leave you now. I shall call for you on Thursday,
after you have rested. Enjoy your stay, gentlemen."
Alex shook the man's hand again, "Thank you again, Uncle
"Again, it was my pleasure, Alex." The man turned and
left, shutting the door behind him.
Mulder stood in the middle of the room, unsure what to do next.
He felt Alex come up behind him and wrap his arms around him.
"We are finally alone." He kissed Mulder's ear. "We
can do whatever we want, whenever we want, and not worry about
anyone, or anything." He kissed Mulder's ear again, feeling
the tension melt away from his body with his kisses.
Mulder leaned his head back, nuzzling it into Alex's shoulder.
"What time is it? What day is it, for that matter?"
Alex laughed, "It is 9 in the evening, and it is Monday.
Have you made plans, already? Do you need to be somewhere?"
"No, I...I just wanted to know."
Alex turned Mulder around so he was facing him. He gave him a
fierce hug before letting him go. "I am going to call down
for some supper. In the meantime, why don't we have a bath? Alex's
eyes glittered green in the glow from the crystal chandelier.
Mulder couldn't hide his smile. He missed their nightly bath and
what followed it. His cock started to harden as he thought of
their wet bodies pressed against each other.
"Go start the bath; I will join you momentarily." Alex
playfully tapped Mulder on the ass as he walked by. He called
down for supper then joined Mulder, ensuring to tell the front
desk to remind their staff not to disturb him in the bath.
The bathroom was unlike any Mulder had seen in his life. It was
as big as a bedroom. A large, claw- footed bathtub with gold fixtures
was in the middle of the room. There was an ornately carved dressing
table with lights around the mirror nestled in a corner. A large,
cushioned stool sat in front of it. Jars of powder and perfumes
sat atop the grand structure. Against a wall, large towels were
on a warming rack which also held robes and pajamas. A crystal
chandelier was overhead, casting a warm glow throughout the room.
Sheer draperies covered the window. Mulder stood there, staring
at everything until Alex came in to join him.
"It is nice, isn't it? Come, I have been thinking about a
bath for weeks." Alex strode over and started the taps, filling
the large tub with warm water. Soaps and small bottles of bath
oil were held in a golden basket along one side.
Mulder started undoing the buttons on his shirt. Suddenly, Alex's
hands joined his and took over the process.
Alex leaned in and kissed Mulder, his tongue probing inside his
mouth. His hands flew over the buttons on Mulder's shirt, making
short work of them. He pulled the shirt back and practically ripped
off the undershirt he was wearing and dove for the now exposed
nipples with his mouth.
Mulder ran his hands down Alex's back and pulled his shirt off
up, over his head then undid Alex's trousers. Alex did the same
and soon they were naked, their heated skin rubbing against each
other. Mulder molded his mouth to Alex's, his hands wandering
freely over his body, cupping his ass, teasing his nipples. Soon,
they were writhing against each other, the friction of their bodies
threatening to set the room on fire.
Suddenly, Alex stood back, "Wait, Fox, wait."
Mulder pulled back and stared at his lover as if he was mad.
"Let's get into the tub before the water gets cold."
Mulder smiled and followed Alex into the warm water. He found
a sponge alongside washcloths in a basket beside the tub. He held
it under the water for a minute to soften it, ran soap along it,
then began the ritual he loved so much. He washed his lover from
head to toe, pausing to tease his nipples and other sensitive
parts of Alex's body. He paid special attention to his cock, pulling
the foreskin back and rubbing the sponge along the hard shaft.
"Oh, yes, Fox." Alex bit his lip. If he kept that up,
he was going to come. As if he heard his thoughts, Mulder moved
the sponge down a leg, cleaning and caressing all the way.
When Mulder was done, he surrendered the sponge to Alex, who began
to do the same to Mulder. He could see the passion rising in Mulder's
eyes from his caressing and rubbing the sponge along every inch
of his body. Alex could feel the pre-cum start to come up out
of his cock just from looking at him.
He leaned forward and started kissing Mulder on the mouth, moving
down to his neck, lingering at his collarbone, marking him as
his own. He then moved lower, to Mulder's nipples again, which
were hard and ready to be sucked on. Mulder moaned and groaned,
sloshing the water onto the marble floor as Alex played with a
nipple and sucked on the other.
"Alex...Alex...I..." Mulder let out a moan then a sigh.
White fluid began to show on the surface of the water.
"Are you a little sensitive, tonight, my love?" Alex
stood, reaching for his lover to stand with him.
Mulder stood and faced Alex. They got out of the tub, Alex pulling
"I'm sorry," Mulder said as Alex handed him a towel.
"Nonsense. I take it as a compliment that I can make you
feel so good. Besides, I will have fun bringing you to the same
satisfaction again later. Although it may take longer. And that
will be fun too." Alex grabbed Mulder by the back of the
head and brought him to kiss him once again.
Mulder smiled as he pulled away, but then noticed the state Alex
"What about you?"
"What about me? I am fine."
"No, you're not." Mulder immediately sank to his knees
and took Alex's cock into his mouth. It did not take more than
a couple of licks with his tongue until his lover was shooting
a hot stream of creamy fluid down his throat.
"I think we both needed that." Alex brought his love
up to kiss him, to taste himself on his lips. He smiled. "That
made me very hungry. Are you hungry, Fox?"
"Yes." Mulder's eyes were full of satisfaction and love;
he wanted Alex to throw him down and make love to him all night
Each of them toweled off, switching to towel each other off instead.
When their rubbing forced a moan from Mulder, Alex stood back
and reached for a robe. "We have to eat something,"
he laughed. He then moved closer and kissed Mulder briefly. "I
want to make love to you properly, in a bed, then wake up with
you in my arms." He did up the robe, a towel around his neck
to catch the drips from his hair.
Mulder let out a frustrated sigh but put a robe on just the same.
Alex was right, it would be better in a nice, soft bed. A flutter
ran through his stomach as he thought of waking next to Alex tomorrow,
the next day, and the day after that. He was so lucky he let him
come with him to Argentina.
"Fox, are you coming?"
Mulder followed Alex into the livingroom, where a dining area
was set up. Candles glowed in the centre, and a bottle of wine
was open, breathing the nighttime air. Bread was in a basket before
them, and an assortment of fruits and cheeses were laid out. They
both sat as the table was set, across from each other.
Mulder lifted the large silver dome that covered his food. When
he saw a bowl of soup in front of him, he frowned, then looked
across to see that Alex had the same meal.
"We have not eaten in two days. The meals that we were provided
in the past three weeks were not that good. As a matter of fact,
most of them were quite inedible. I thought soup would give our
stomachs a chance to get used to good food again."
Mulder smiled at Alex. "You're always looking out for me,
"Fox," Alex reached across and grabbed Mulder's hand.
"I cannot tell you how much I want to take care of you, to
treat you right. You mean everything to me."
Mulder blushed at the words, and he looked down at his bowl of
soup. No one had ever said that he meant anything to anyone. "I...thank
you for bringing me with you."
"There was never any question," Alex whispered. Perhaps
if he told himself that enough times, he would genuinely believe
it. Mulder stared at him, knowing perfectly well that Alex had
intended to leave him behind almost up till the last minute, but
he was so happy to be with Alex that he didn't say anything. "Now,
let's eat our soup, before it gets cold."
They ate their supper and drank the wine, both of them soon yawning.
Finally, Alex stood and offered Mulder his hand. He took it and
followed Alex into the bedroom. This was also full of antiques
and elaborate draperies. A window was open, bringing in the cool
night air, the sheer curtains barely moving in the breeze.
Alex undid the tie on Mulder's robe and motioned for him to lie
on the large bed. When Mulder was lying on his back, naked, Alex
doffed his robe and towel, and climbed up beside him. He rubbed
Mulder's feet with his hands, soothing him, massaging him. He
then followed with his lips, kissing up Mulder's legs, first the
left, then the right. He took his time, exploring his lower body
with his hands, caressing the muscles. He lingered at Mulder's
knees, bringing giggles when he licked and kissed the backs of
them. When he got to Mulder's crotch, Alex merely placed a kiss
on the tip of Mulder's hardening cock and continued on his journey
up his body.
He kissed the palms of his hands and every finger. He slowly made
his way up one arm, then another, as he had done with his legs,
enjoying the fact that Mulder's elbows were just as ticklish as
his knees. He was now at Mulder's chest, kissing and sucking on
his nipples, licking the outline of his ribs and muscles. He lingered
at his neck, marking him yet again at his collarbone. Finally,
he got to his face, kissing each eyelid, his nose, his forehead,
his chin. He looked down at his lover for a second; such bliss
showed on his face. He sat back and reached down with his hands
to spread Mulder's legs. He lay between them, holding his lover,
caressing his face. Only then did he kiss his lips.
It was if electricity was passing between them, their lips parted
so their tongues could dance together, searching, exploring now
familiar territory. Alex started to grind himself against Mulder,
their erections rubbing together, mixing their pre-cum in a sticky
film across their bellies. He felt Mulder's hands come down to
cup his ass again then move up across his back.
Alex started back down Mulder's body, tracing a trail with his
tongue, until he was at his groin. He nuzzled Mulder's cock with
his cheek, breathing in his intoxicating scent. He licked up the
hard shaft, bringing a shudder from his lover. His tongue lingered
at the top, swirling around and around before his mouth covered
the member, sucking and lapping up the essence flowing from the
tip. He then moved down to Mulder's balls, licking and sucking
on them, bringing whimpers of ecstasy from above.
"Please, Alex, please."
"Does this feel good?"
"Yes. I can't stand it, it's so good."
"All in time, Fox."
Another whimper was heard as Alex grabbed Mulder's legs and hauled
them up over his shoulders. His mouth came down on Mulder's balls
again, sucking and nipping at the fragile skin. Lower his mouth
went, to the perineum and finally to the puckered opening. He
spread Mulder's ass cheeks with his fingers as his tongue dipped
in and out of the tight hole, teasing and taunting so that Mulder
was soon writhing on the bed.
"Oh, Alex...please, Alex, I'm begging you."
Alex smirked as he left the bed for a moment to retrieve the tin
of lubricant from his bag. He climbed back on the bed and looked
at Mulder in the throes of passion. His cock was purple and weeping
large amounts of pre-cum, his nipples were tight buds, his lips
swollen and kiss bruised.
Alex put Mulder's legs over his shoulders again before coating
a finger with the lubricant. He entered it into Mulder's ass,
stroking the smooth interior, spreading the jelly around. Mulder
opened up easily in his state and a second finger easily joined
the first. Alex caressed his prostate, watching him jump and writhe
even more. The whimpers grew louder, and Alex could stand it no
more. He slicked up his hard cock and drove home with one push.
Mulder cried out with pleasure as Alex entered him. He had been
imagining this for so long, making love, real love in a bed with
pillows and softness. A pair of lips were at his and he kissed
them, his eyes closed, his legs spread wide. He dug his hands
into Alex's shoulders as he started to drive into him strongly
and with purpose.
"Fox, my beautiful Fox," Alex whispered into his ear.
He had wanted to make this last a long time, but the feeling was
too much, and he started pumping fast into his lover. He could
feel the tingling low in his abdomen, and he knew it wasn't going
to last long at all. He reached down and grabbed Mulder's cock,
stroking in time with his thrusts. "Come, Fox, come for me."
Mulder let out a cry as his semen coated them both, moaning Alex's
name. Alex let out his own cry, and he collapsed on his lover,
his balls releasing his seed deep within his lover.
They lay there, joined for awhile, until Alex reached over the
side of the bed to retrieve the towel that he dropped before and
cleaned them up. Mulder barely felt Alex kiss him before he fell
The next morning, Mulder was woken by birds singing and sunlight
coming through the window. That had been his first restful sleep
since they left Berlin. Actually, thinking of the bombings, Alex's
occasional nightmares and his own, it was probably the first truly
contented sleep he'd had since the night before he left on the
bombing run that led to him becoming Alex's prisoner. Who'd have
thought it would take a war for him to find love? He looked over
at Alex, his face snuggled in his pillow, his naked form visible
underneath the sheet.
Mulder pulled the sheet back and looked down at his lover. //So
beautiful. Alex calls me beautiful, but he is the beautiful one.//
He bent down and kissed his shoulder, licking his lips after he
did so. The taste of Alex on his lips made him want more. He straddled
his still sleeping lover and kissed his back and down, his hands
caressing the muscles underneath the skin. Alex woke to Mulder's
touch and moaned encouragement.
Mulder moved his mouth further down Alex's back to the base of
his spine, nuzzling the fine hairs that grew there with his stubble-covered
chin. He felt Alex jump as he moved down to his ass, kneading
the round globes, his fingers probing inside the crack, teasing
Alex moaned when Mulder stroked the puckered opening to his ass.
He knew what Mulder wanted, and he was going to let him do just
that. He wondered why he'd been so hesitant to take that final
step years earlier, then he realized that it wouldn't have been
the same with anyone else. It was the love that he and Mulder
shared that made it so pleasurable for him. He could never give
up control like that with anyone else.
Mulder's mouth went down to where Alex's leg met his ass, sucking
and biting at the skin, marking him as he had been marked the
night before. When he was pleased with the large purple bruise,
he moved on. He spread Alex's legs and reached for the tin of
lubricant. He coated two fingers liberally, one pressing against
the opening. With a little teasing, he was let in.
"Oh, god, Fox, that feels good."
Mulder only smiled as he lubricated the passage well. When he
was satisfied that he could penetrate Alex with only minor discomfort,
he pulled Alex up onto all fours. He hastily applied the lubricant
to his cock and started to push inside.
Alex had been anticipating this, the time when Mulder instigated
love making sessions, and he was not disappointed. He watched
as Mulder reached over for the towel from the night before, positioning
it to catch Alex's semen. He quivered as Mulder's cock inched
inside him, his own hard cock dripping onto the towel below.
Mulder fully embedded himself in Alex with one final push, stopping
for a second to catch his breath. He leaned over his lover, caressing
his front and pinching his nipples, gaining whimpers from below.
"Fox...you feel so good inside me."
Mulder began to move in and out of Alex, slowly at first, but
then faster and faster with every stroke. He could feel his balls
slap against Alex's; he could smell his lover underneath him;
he could hear the moans and whimpers coming from him.
Alex's arms gave way as Mulder reached forward to grab his cock.
He could not remember ever being so aroused, so hard, so loved.
He rested forward on his elbows, this angle giving Mulder a better
connection with his prostate. He started to fuck Mulder's hand,
driving Mulder's cock in and out of him at a rapid pace.
"Oh god...oh Fox...my Fox, I love you...oh god!" Alex
came with a strangled cry, long streams of semen shooting out
of his cock and onto the towel below.
Mulder continued to slam into Alex's ass, finally letting go,
his orgasm making him shudder and shake. He collapsed to the side,
still embedded in Alex. They lay there, joined together for a
few minutes, until Mulder pulled out of Alex and cleaned them
up. He returned to the bed, curling up around his lover before
sleep claimed them yet again.
A few hours later, they woke, still in each other's arms, Alex
caressing Mulder's hair.
Alex kissed Mulder on his sleepy lips, a grin replacing the pout.
Mulder then snuggled closer, his head buried in Alex's chest.
"Fox, we should get up."
Mulder only groaned.
"What do you want to do today?"
"I don't know. What do you want to do?"
"No, it's up to you."
Mulder stretched and yawned then propped himself up on his elbow
to look at Alex. He traced the outline of his face with a finger
before kissing him again.
"Did you really mean it when you said you loved me?"
"Yes, I did."
Mulder smiled. "I love you too."
Alex returned the smile. "Now, what do you want to do today?
You are avoiding the question."
Mulder sighed. "I think we need some new clothes. The fashions
are different here."
"I agree. We should try to fit in as much as possible. I
know a very good tailor in Plaza San Martin."
"You've been to Buenos Aires before, haven't you?" Mulder
"Yes, I was here a few years ago with my father. He was interested
in buying a hotel here and moving his business out of Germany.
He was nervous when Hitler started to spread his propaganda. Unfortunately,
he never realized his dream. He died in his sleep a few months
after our trip. My mother also died a few weeks after that; I
always thought it was of a broken heart." Alex stared off
into the distance for a minute, before continuing. "He did,
however, liquidate his assets and move them to a bank in Switzerland,
where they still are."
Mulder caressed Alex's cheek with the back of his hand. "I'm
sorry about your parents, you seem to have been close to them."
"I was. I still miss them terribly, after all these years."
Mulder hugged Alex, knowing the pain of losing someone close.
No wonder Alex had been so harsh when they first met; losing both
his parents, his wife and his only child in such a short period
of time must have hurt him so much that he wasn't willing to let
anyone else get close to him and take the chance of losing them
"Come on, Fox, let's get up. Buenos Aires is too beautiful
a city to waste all day in bed." He kissed Mulder on the
lips before adding, "Although I want to stay in bed with
you very much." He grinned at Mulder. "But the anticipation
will make it that much better when I get you back here."
Mulder blushed as he watched his lover roll over and get out of
bed. This was their first morning together as real lovers, and
it gave him a warm feeling.
Alex called down for some breakfast while they got dressed. After
they ate, they went to the tailors, walking the few blocks to
Plaza San Martin. Mulder was doing fine until they got to the
Plaza itself, where the mid-morning bustle was too much for him.
Alex sat them down on a bench while Mulder did his breathing exercises
and tried to calm down.
Alex gazed at his lover who looked miserable. The sweat was pouring
off of him, trickling down the back of his neck and his cheeks.
Mulder's face also had this pale green tinge to it. He had to
find a way to get rid of Mulder's paranoia and get him to regain
his trust in himself, his confidence.
"Are you all right?"
"I'll be fine in just a minute." Mulder shook his head.
"I...I'm sorry, Alex. I can't control it, it just happens...in
the room, I'm fine, when I get outside, I...I..." He started
to breathe rapidly again. He closed his eyes and tried, in vain,
"It is all right, Fox, take your time." He squeezed
his hand for reassurance.
About twenty minutes later, Mulder was calm enough to continue
to the tailor's. Alex and Mulder were measured for new wardrobes,
picking a few ready-made pieces to wear until their clothing was
ready. It took some prodding, but Alex finally got the colour
and fabric choices out of Mulder that he wanted. He even managed
to get Mulder to express a preference about some of Alex's own
clothes, things that Alex intended to wear to please him. When
they were done, it was mid-day and Alex was hungry.
"What do you say to some lunch? I know a great restaurant
across the Plaza from here."
Mulder looked at the ground and did not say anything.
"What? What is it?" Alex put a finger under Mulder's
chin and lifted it so their eyes met.
"Nothing. Lunch sounds fine," Mulder whispered.
Alex sighed in exasperation. "No, it is not fine. What is
Mulder chewed on his lower lip. While that action would have been
sexy under any other circumstance, it sent off an alarm in Alex's
head. He knew something was wrong. Alex smiled at his lover and
kept his voice calm and soothing.
"Fox, if something is bothering you, I would like you to
"You'll get mad."
"I will not get mad."
"I..." Mulder broke off.
"Yes? Fox, please tell me." Alex wanted to grab him
and hug him, instead he squeezed his upper arm with his hand.
"I'm tired. That...episode I had earlier wore me out. I want
to go back to the hotel and get some sleep."
"Is that all?"
Mulder managed a tiny smile, but his eyes still had worry in them.
"You're not going to punish me?"
"Punish you? For being tired? I want you to realize that
you are not my prisoner anymore, you're my lover. We are free,
you are a free man with free thoughts. If you are tired, I want
you to tell me. Same with if you are hungry, or thirsty, or do
not like something. I value your opinion." Alex decided to
try a different tack. "You've told me before that you like
to please me, that it makes you happy." He waited until Fox
nodded before continuing, "Well, it makes *me* happy to please
*you* too. Te quiero, mi hermoso Fox."
"Oh." Mulder smiled, his eyes still showing a hint of
worry. "What does that mean?"
"It means I love you, my beautiful Fox."
Mulder smiled for real now.
"Come, let's get you back to bed."
They walked the short distance back to the hotel. Soon, Alex had
Mulder dozing in the bed while he went into the parlor where he
made two telephone calls. He then went back to the bedroom and
sat on the side of the bed.
"Fox, I have some business to attend to. I will be back in
a few hours. Will you be all right by yourself?"
Alex quickly kissed Mulder on the forehead then left the hotel.
He walked back to Plaza San Martin where he joined his silver-haired
"Thank you for meeting me on such short notice, sir."
"My pleasure. I have not been to this restaurant in weeks.
How is your friend?"
"He's resting. He is still tired from our journey."
"If I were Fox Mulder, I would be tired as well."
Alex's face showed no expression, "What do you mean?"
"I have been following your notorious military career, Alex.
I promised your father that I would look out for you, and I am
fulfilling my duty. He never warned me, however, that you would
turn into a heartless torture monger."
Alex's mouth opened then closed again. His eyes dropped to the
linen tablecloth flapping in the breeze from the open windows.
"Why, Alex? Why did you do those things I read about? Not
only Lidice, but Kharkov, Stalingrad...those poor boys you tortured
for days. Not to mention your interrogation techniques in that
"I am aware of what I have done." Alex lit a cigarette,
the blue smoke swirling around in the air.
"So many times I wanted to go back to Germany and find out
what happened to the young man I met on that business trip, so
full of hope and life."
"You know what happened."
"We all lost people in the war, Alex."
Alex's eyes snapped up to meet the other man's gaze. "You
were not there. You did not see what was happening. You did not
see your four year old daughter and wife get mangled by their
own house collapsing on them from a mortar blast."
"Still, we did not all become monsters."
"Is that what I am to you now? A monster? Someone without
feelings? When I wore that uniform, it gave me the power I needed
to seek my revenge on the people that hurt me. I am no longer
"I know what you did to Mulder in your prison. Rescuing him
from death will not make you feel better."
"I did not rescue him to make me feel better." Alex
kept his voice calm, but inside he was enraged. "I love Fox."
"I do not understand. One minute he is your prisoner, the
next he is your servant, then he is your lover."
Alex took a long drag on his cigarette. He knew he was going to
have this conversation with this man sooner or later. It was better
to get it all out in the open at the beginning. His eyes dropped
to the tablecloth again.
"The second I laid eyes on him, I wanted him. He did something
to me that no other had, ever. I thought about him all the time.
When I was beating him, I wanted to posses him, to own him. When
I would try to sleep at night, I would see his face and want nothing
more than to hold him in my arms. I would get so frustrated when
I could not that I would beat him harder."
Alex's hands were now shaking as he took the final drag from his
cigarette, and his voice fell to a whisper as he continued, "I
have no excuse for my behaviour, other than it was war and a crazy
time. Everyone did what they had to do survive, including me."
He stubbed out his cigarette and reached for his glass of water,
taking a healthy gulp. His eyes were still downcast and his voice
still low. "I slowly came to realize that what I was doing
to him was wrong, that I wanted to love him not hurt him. That's
when I moved him into my house, so I could protect him from further
harm. Now, I am trying to right my wrongdoing. But believe me
when I tell you that I do love him. I have never felt closer to
another human being since I met my wife." He looked up with
a terrible sorrow and fear in his eyes. "I can only hope
that he still wants to be with me when he's himself again.
Grey looked at Alex, expression still blank. "I am glad you
can admit your faults, my friend. Let us hope no one tries to
take revenge for your actions."
A shudder ran through Alex; he had not thought of that before.
"As for your American friend, I know you are telling me the
truth. And now I know why you want this." He took a small
package from his breast pocket and passed it over to Alex who
put it in his own pocket.
"Thank you," Alex whispered. He looked up at his friend
again and smiled.
"Be very careful, Alex."
"Good. Now, let's have some lunch."
Later that evening, Alex was anxious to try and break Mulder out
of his shell. With the serum that his friend had given him, it
would be easier. They were sitting on a couch, Mulder in his arms,
listening to the radio, when Alex broke the silence.
"Fox, I want to try something."
Alex sat up and looked at Mulder. "I want to try and rid
you of your panic attacks and anxiety, would you like that?"
Mulder nodded, "Very much."
Alex stood and turned the radio off. Then he motioned for Mulder
to sit in a large, overstuffed chair. "Make yourself comfortable."
Mulder sat down and settled into the chair. Alex sat down in front
"Close your eyes and go to your safe place, Fox. I want you
Mulder closed his eyes. After a few minutes his breathing slowed
down, and his jaw went slack.
"Good." Alex opened the package that his friend had
given him earlier, revealing a vial of brown liquid and a syringe.
He opened the vial and filled the syringe part way with the liquid.
He made sure there were no air bubbles in it before he spoke again.
"Now. I am going to give you something to relax further.
If at any time you feel uncomfortable, I want you to tell me,
Alex pushed the needle into Mulder's arm and pushed the plunger
of the syringe down. He removed it from his arm and set it aside,
then sat back and waited for the drug to take effect.
A few minutes later, Mulder spoke. "I feel funny."
"Funny, how, Fox?"
"Like I'm floating."
"Are you still in your safe place?"
Alex took a deep breath. "Fox, I want you to tell me how
you feel when you have your panic attacks. What happens to you?"
Mulder swallowed, his voice was calm, his words slow. "It
only happens outside. I feel like the world is closing in on me.
My chest starts to tighten and I can't breathe. There are too
many people, too many things going on at once. I am afraid they
are going to catch up to me and take me back to prison."
"The Nazis, the Americans."
"You think they followed you from Germany?"
"Because I betrayed my country."
"How did you betray your country?"
"When I went to work for you, when I fell in love with you,
an SS officer, when I killed those American soldiers to protect
you. I should have gone to a camp, to be a prisoner, not bask
in luxury as your valet, as your lover. I should have hated you,
killed you myself at the first opportunity, but instead I killed
to save you and deserted to stay with you. It is desertion, you
know. I could have gone back to the Americans; you told me so.
But I couldn't leave you."
"I see. Do you feel guilty about leaving your brothers in
arms back at the camp?"
"Yes. I was in a camp for two weeks. When they grabbed me
and took me to the prison, they were all sure I was to die. I
should have died."
Alex closed his eyes and took another deep breath. He knew this
was not going to be easy. His specialty was breaking people down,
making them believe they were garbage and filling their heads
with propaganda. Building someone up and giving them hope was
"Do you still feel that you should die?"
"No. Not now. When I was being tortured at the beginning,
I wished I was dead. But not now, now I want to live."
Relief washed over Alex's features at that remark. "Let's
get back to the people you think that are following you. When
do you feel like they are around you?"
"When we are in a crowd. Everyone is speaking another language,
and I can't understand them. I know they're talking about me,
they're whispering to each other that the American is here. I
know they want to hurt me and take me away." Tears welled
up in Mulder's eyes, "I don't want to be taken away again,
please don't let them take me away."
"No one is going to take you anywhere, Fox. You have got
to believe me when I tell you that nothing can hurt you here.
Do you believe me?"
Alex pursed his lips together, his forehead a knot of concern.
"Do you ever feel safe, Fox?" he asked softly.
"When do you feel safe?"
"When I am inside with you, or in my safe place. When I am
"You feel safe when you are being punished?"
"Because I know that you love me."
"Do you not think that I love you, otherwise?"
"Yes...but when you punish me, you devote all your energy
Alex licked his lips. "Do you miss being punished?"
"Yes. I want you to love me."
"I do love you. Please realize that. I love you no matter
what. I don't want to hurt you anymore. I'm sorry I ever did."
He saw the fear cross Mulder's face. //What have I done to you,
my Fox?// "Fox, pain isn't part of love. The war hurt me
so I hurt anyone I could, and unfortunately that included you.
But now the war is no longer our concern; we are lovers, not enemies
anymore. Do you believe that I love you, Fox?"
"Yes, I know you love me." But he still looked unhappy.
Alex was silent for a moment. It was going to take many nights
to clear Mulder of these feelings. He looked at his watch; the
drug would be wearing off soon. He hadn't given Mulder very much
on their first run, as he didn't want to cause him any harm. They
would have to leave this for now and go back to it tomorrow.
"Mulder, I want you to relax again. Are you still in your
"Good. I want you to remember what we talked about, about
you not coming to any harm, about me loving you. I want you to
feel safe and loved when you wake up, okay?"
"Good. The drug will wear off soon. I am going to be sitting
here, right in front of you the whole time. You may feel slightly
ill though. When you can open your eyes, I want you to look at
me and let me know how you feel, okay?"
Alex sat there and watched Mulder as he slowly came out of his
trance. Finally, his eyes opened and he smiled weakly.
"I feel like I've been drinking all night."
Alex reached across and took Mulder's hand in his own. "I
think we are making progress, Fox. We have to keep up these sessions,
though. Is that alright with you?"
"Yes, it's fine."
Alex smiled at him, "Good."
"I'm tired. I think I'll go to bed."
"Good idea, I will join you shortly." He squeezed Mulder's
hand before letting go and watching his lover stand and wobble
to the bedroom. Alex took the notepad and pen that was beside
him and jotted a few notes down about this session and a reminder
of what to ask Mulder in their next. He then retired to the bedroom
to join Mulder in sleep.
Mulder and Alex were getting tired. They had looked at ten houses
today, none of which seemed particularly interesting to either
of them. Finally, they were on their last house of the day, located
in a newer neighbourhood, a few kilometres from a busy Plaza.
"There are a lot of German couples living on this street,"
Grey said. "I know you want to live in a predominately Spanish
neighbourhood, that is why I left this until last."
"Well, we have not had any luck at any of the other houses.
Are you too tired to look at another one, Fox?"
Mulder shrugged, "It doesn't matter to me."
Alex rolled his eyes, out of Mulder's view. He was getting frustrated
with Mulder's meek attitude today. Every time Alex asked him a
question, he would respond with either another question or a noncommittal
answer. Visions of his wife chastising him for not listening to
her, or not replying adequately ran through his mind. //I now
know what you meant, Gretchen, and I am sorry.// Alex offered
up a silent prayer to her and Trudi in the back of the car making
its way down the tree-lined street.
They pulled up in front of a large house with large trees out
front and a slate walkway leading up to the front door. The style
was clearly Victorian, yet there were indications that the house
was not more than ten years old.
"This house replaced one that burnt down on this very spot.
The owner kept the style of the house to fit in with the neighbourhood."
They departed from the car and walked up to the grand house. They
opened the door and walked inside, touring around the main floor
with its large kitchen, parlor and French doors leading off to
a slate patio. A large garden filled with flowers was at the back
of the lot. The second floor held three bedrooms and two baths.
The master bedroom had an en-suite full bath with large bathtub.
Alex looked at Mulder who actually blushed. They were about to
go downstairs again, when Mulder noticed a door leading off the
"Where does this door lead to?"
"I don't know. It's listed as only a three bedroom."
Mulder turned the knob and swung the door open to a large room
with bookshelves built into the walls. His face shone as he looked
at the oak and pine shelves stained a rich honey colour, matching
the hardwood floor throughout the house. Mulder stood in the middle
of the room and looked at the room, the large windows that faced
the backyard let in the setting sun, giving everything a warm,
orange glow. Slowly, a look of joy came over his face.
"Do you like it?"
"I've always wanted a library." Mulder went over and
stroked the wood with his fingers. "But it's your house,
not mine. It should be what you want."
Alex felt rage build up within himself. He reminded himself to
remain calm as he turned to his friend, "Could you please
give us a few minutes?"
"By all means. I will be downstairs." The silver- haired
man turned and left the room, shutting the door behind him.
Alex walked up to Mulder and held on to his arms, looking into
his eyes. "Fox, don't you realize that whatever house we
pick will be your house too?"
"I will work here, of course, but it will ultimately be your
Alex closed his eyes and bit his lip to keep from screaming in
frustration. Instead he turned away from Mulder and went to look
out the window to the backyard below. After a moment, he turned
"Look. I don't know how many times I have to tell you this,
I love you, Fox. You and I are together. I do not want you as
my prisoner; I do not want you as my valet. I want you and me
to be together forever. You are my mate. Is that clear?"
"Yes." Mulder looked down at the floor.
Alex was frustrated beyond belief. He would have to up the dosage
of Sodium Pentothal for their nightly sessions. For three nights,
he had hammered into Mulder's brain that he was an equal, and
it wasn't getting him anywhere. Mulder just kept telling him whatever
he thought he wanted to hear without actually believing it. //Patience,
Alex. You made him this way, now you have to get him back to normal.//
He took a deep breath to calm himself. "Hey," Alex said
softly before walking over to Mulder and kissing him on the lips.
"I love you. Whatever you want, I want. Do you want this
house? Do you like the library?"
"I love this house."
"Then we shall buy this house." Maybe if he just kept
finding out and giving Fox what he really wanted, eventually he'd
believe in his love.
They went back downstairs to tell Grey that they would take the
house. He informed them that they could have it by the beginning
of the month, a mere two weeks away. In the meantime, they should
shop for furnishings, so when they moved in, they would have what
For the next two weeks, Alex and Mulder spent their time looking
for items to outfit their new home, Alex even buying an automobile.
He thought about buying one for Mulder as well but decided to
wait until Mulder felt more able to deal with people. Right now
it would be pointless. At night, Alex would hold his sessions
with Mulder, ridding him of his paranoia, convincing him that
he was his equal. They made slow progress, but now Mulder could
go to the busy square alone, without suffering the panic attacks
that once plagued him. He spent most of his time in a small bookstore,
specializing in English texts, buying books for his library at
home. In fact, he spent so much time there that Alex started to
miss having him around whenever he wanted him and grew sulky.
Though he didn't appreciate it at first, this led to the first
real sign that Mulder was recovering from his abuse.
The day before they were due to move into their new home, Mulder
spent the entire morning at the bookstore and stayed through lunch
as well. When he did come back, Alex was pouting in the living
room and muttered something about hoping he'd finish buying his
damn books soon so they could spend some time together. Mulder
lost his temper.
"Yeah, you were so anxious to spend time with me that you
were going to leave me in the middle of Berlin while you saved
your own skin!" he yelled, shocking Alex into silence. "Now
suddenly it bothers you if I find something to do that doesn't
revolve around you for a few hours?! Well, fuck that! And fuck
you too!" He threw his latest bag of books down on the floor
and stormed into the bedroom, slamming the door behind him.
Alex stood frozen, staring at the closed door between them. Slowly,
very slowly, he sank to the floor where he stood, unable even
to take the few steps back to the chair he'd been sitting in when
Mulder arrived. Suddenly the door flew open again, and Mulder
reappeared, anger radiating from every pore. Alex pushed himself
to his feet, watching Mulder silently, which only seemed to enrage
"And while we're on the subject, where the hell do you get
off *whipping* me? I'm a human being, not some animal. Hell, I
wouldn't treat any animal the way you treated me! You deliberately
set out to degrade me!"
"Yes." The one soft word was Alex's only response.
Mulder let out a snarl of frustrated rage and punched Alex, knocking
him to the ground.
That was more than Alex could take, guilty conscience or no, and
he sprang to his feet with a bellow of rage. "How dare you!?
How *fucking* dare you!?! I was doing my job, but you! Mr. O-So-Honorable
American, what about you? You *raped* me!"
"You raped me first!"
"At least *I* made sure you enjoyed it!"
"I didn't want to enjoy it! I wanted to go home!" Mulder
practically spit in Alex's face with that last yell since they
were now standing toe to toe, both red- faced with anger, yelling
at each other like children having a temper tantrum.
Mulder suddenly realized that he had just punched and was now
screaming in the face of the man that only days before he had
practically begged to beat him to show his love. He started to
think about what was going on, remembering everything from his
nightly sessions with Alex and comparing it with how Alex had
treated him in prison at the beginning. He stared in amazement
when all the pieces fell into place.
Alex stared back nervously, not knowing what was going through
Mulder's head, but clearly something was going on.
"You're trying to undo what you did to me." Mulder made
the statement with a degree of shock usually reserved for things
like the eruption of Mount Vesuvius, the sinking of Atlantis,
Judgement Day and other things of that magnitude.
Alex looked away guiltily.
"Why?" Mulder placed on hand on Alex's cheek, turning
him to meet his eyes. "Why would you want to do that? I would
have done anything you wanted, so why undo it?"
Alex tried to take courage from the hand still resting against
his cheek. "Because I love you. Because I want a lover, not
a slave. Because it hurt me to see you so afraid and know that
it was because of me. Because I'm the only one who could."
Mulder stared into frightened green eyes, seeing the truth of
Alex's words, and he remembered that despite everything he loved
this man. Under all his anger, and there was a lot of it, that
truth was at the core of him. He loved Alex Krycek, and nothing
could ever change that. He closed his eyes and sighed, leaning
his forehead against Alex's.
Opening his eyes again, he took Alex's hand and led him into the
bedroom where they lay together, just holding one another silently.
They still had a long way to go, but for the first time Alex truly
believed that Fox was going to be all right and was still going
to love him and stay with him.
Finally, the day arrived when they moved in. Everything had been
delivered from their hotel, so they just had to go to the house
with the clothes on their backs. Malcolm dropped them off, grinning
at Alex as they left. He was glad that his friend's son had found
happiness despite the horrors he had been through.
They walked in the house, shut the door behind them and embraced.
"Welcome home, Fox. This is your home. We are together forever."
Mulder kissed Alex, tears welling up in his eyes. He had never
felt so loved. Suddenly, the smell of something cooking wafted
up to his nostrils.
"Are you cooking something?"
Alex smiled coyly, "No, we have a cook and maid. Her name
is Elena, and she comes highly recommended."
"What am I to do?"
"Do? Anything you want. You can read all day in your library,
go for walks, whatever you please. You might even want to spend
some time with me occasionally." Alex looked at Mulder through
his lashes, grinning at his expression of exasperation. Mulder
had to laugh. "There is a garden out back, if you are so
inclined. Elena's brother, Ricardo will come to tend to the gardening
if you have no interest."
"I've never had...servants before, I don't know how to treat
"You treat them as you treat anyone. With respect. Now, come
They walked into the kitchen where a trim, yet husky woman of
about fifty was bustling around the kitchen, checking an enormous
pan that was simmering on the stove. She smiled and greeted Alex,
speaking in rushed Spanish. She then gripped Mulder's hand and
greeted him the same way.
Mulder smiled at her warmly and nodded. Everyone at the hotel
had spoken English, and whenever he needed translation, Alex was
there for him. Now, he needed to assimilate further and learn
the language. He couldn't imagine spending the rest of his life
in a country where he didn't speak the language.
"Alex, I don't speak Spanish. I need to learn."
"I've been thinking about that; we should get you a tutor
Elena continued talking, looking back at them and smiling as she
opened the oven and brought out some heavenly-smelling rolls.
Alex answered her then led Mulder upstairs.
"What was that all about?"
Alex laughed, "She said to wash up, dinner is in ten minutes."
"It took her that long to say that?"
''Actually, she was also telling me that she has some nieces that
would like to meet us."
"You mean, she doesn't know that we're..." Mulder laughed.
"No. She will find out soon enough. I do not want our relationship
to be a secret. We are free and should live our lives as such."
Deciding to match actions to words, Alex suddenly grabbed Mulder
and kissed him, backing him against the wall as he made sure he
didn't miss a single inch of Mulder's mouth in his explorations.
Both were flushed and panting when they separated to continue
up to their bedroom.
After they washed up, they went back down to the diningroom where
they were treated to paella, loaded with seafood and vegetables.
After Elena cleared up the dishes, she excused herself for the
evening and went home. Alex and Mulder retired to the parlor where
they listened to the radio.
"She doesn't live with us?"
"No. Family is very strong here. She comes in the morning
to cook us breakfast and cleans. In the afternoon she leaves for
a few hours to spend time having lunch with her family. She comes
back later in the day to cook dinner. Whatever is left over, she
takes home to her family. It is quite common here for them to
"That's nice, she should spend time with her family."
Alex caressed Mulder's leg from the chair beside the couch Mulder
was sitting on. After Mulder's blow up the previous evening, he'd
been trying to give him some space that day. Otherwise he'd have
been in his favorite position, stretched out on the couch with
Mulder against him. "You know, Fox, we are a family now."
Mulder smiled, "I know."
When Mulder raised Alex's hand from his leg to his lips and kissed
it, Alex moved over to sit beside him on the couch, his hand cupping
his chin, his thumb caressing his lower lip. Gently, he kissed
him, their lips pressing together before parting slowly to allow
their tongues to pass.
Alex broke the kiss and caressed Mulder's lip with his thumb once
more. "Come upstairs so we can make love in our bed."
Mulder grabbed Alex's hand and followed him up to the bedroom.
The four poster bed was covered with crisp sheets and a duvet.
Alex turned off the overhead light, the light from the moon streaming
in the windows providing the only illumination needed.
Very slowly, they undressed each other, licking and kissing the
skin as it was exposed. The heat radiating from their bodies was
incredible, both men sweating from anticipation alone. Finally,
they were naked and moved to the bed, caressing each other all
Alex nestled himself between Mulder's legs, pressing their erections
together while he kissed him. Their tongues danced together, exploring
each other's mouths, as they reacquainted each other with the
details of their bodies.
Alex moved down lower, sucking at Mulder's neck, feeling Mulder's
hands come down to caress his back. Lower he moved until he reached
a nipple, which he sucked and teased, pulling it with his teeth.
Mulder was moaning now, his cock throbbing between his legs. He
could feel Alex suck down the line of hair on his belly to where
he wanted Alex's mouth to be.
"Alex, I want to taste you as well."
Alex looked at his lover for a second before maneuvering around
so he was resting on his side, his mouth in line with Mulder's
cock, his own in line with Mulder's mouth. He covered Mulder's
erection with his mouth, gently sucking, and licking. He breathed
in sharply when he felt Mulder's mouth come around his own, lapping
up the fluid at the head.
Both men sucked and nibbled on each other's cocks, bringing sighs
and moans from each other. Mulder was caressing Alex's balls with
his fingers, lightly stroking the underside of them. Alex had
one finger inside Mulder, slowly fucking him in time with the
pulls of his mouth. Both men, as if on cue, started sucking harder
on each other, moaning, their bodies in sync as they came.
They licked each other clean before turning to face each other
again. They kissed for a long time, their tongues mixing each
other's essences within their mouths to create one unique taste.
Finally, they broke free and just held on to each other before
drifting off into sleep.
Weeks passed, and Alex closed the deal to buy the hotel that he
and his father had looked at years earlier. He spent his days
there, sorting out the staffing and the plans he had for the business.
He was making a name for himself in the business community, turning
an obscure little hotel into a palace. The neighbours, were not
so accommodating, however. Their prejudices ran deep, especially
regarding homosexuality. While Alex and Mulder were cordial to
their neighbours, their greetings were returned with fake smiles
and disapproving glances. Alex shielded Mulder from it as much
as possible. He needed to get him well before he dealt with the
emotional burden of this new problem. He didn't want anything
to jeopardize Mulder's progress, as slow as it was.
Mulder had been moody in the beginning, not sure how to act or
what to do in his own house. This led to more than a few arguments,
Alex glad that Mulder had the courage to now argue back. When
they got started yelling at each other, Elena usually made sure
all the kitchen knives were put away out of sight, crossed herself
with a quick prayer for them and went home out of the war zone.
After the first time in the hotel, they hadn't resorted to fists
again, although Alex thought Mulder might have come close a few
times. When he tired of screaming insults at Alex, Mulder would
storm up to his library and slam the door, not coming out for
hours. Once he calmed down enough to stop cursing Mulder, Alex
would go up there once every hour and knock on the door to make
sure he was okay. Mulder would tell him to leave him alone and
then remain silent until the next time he knocked on the door.
While he was relieved that Mulder was getting better, it killed
him not to be able to take the pain completely away. It was to
be expected that Mulder wasn't going to go right into acting normal
again; the transition would be hard. Alex knew that, but he still
couldn't help getting upset when Mulder was hurting, and that
tension made him more apt to yell back at Mulder. This too, however,
was passing. There had not been an argument or slammed door in
This week was also particularly good for Mulder. He had continued
to visit the small bookstore where he bought most of the volumes
in his library almost daily. The old man that owned it was going
to retire soon and had no children to pass his business on to.
Mulder thought about buying the business from him, but he didn't
have any money. He agonized over asking Alex for a loan, and when
he finally did, Alex went to the bank the next day and paid the
owner the money for the store. In two weeks, Mulder would be running
the shop, his name over the door.
He was learning Spanish, too. At the beginning, he had a private
tutor come in every day. This man was not very nice, however,
and after a week, Mulder asked for him to be replaced. The new
tutor was also not kind; Alex came home one day to find him yelling
at Mulder for using the wrong tense. He was forcibly removed from
the house by Alex, with a threat on his life if he ever saw him
again. Alex wondered what it was about Mulder that made men want
to abuse him.
The best tutor turned out to be their cook, Elena. Mulder walked
in the kitchen one day, just after she had arrived to start the
evening dinner. She made Mulder a cup of coffee and asked him
to sit down. From what little Spanish he had learned from his
tutors, he realized that she wanted to learn English. They struck
a deal that they would teach each other their native tongues while
Mulder watched her prepare the evening meal. Alex was surprised
at the speed at which Mulder had learned the language. He supposed
Elena's offerings of cake and other baked delights helped with
the lessons. Unfortunately, Mulder's attempts to learn to cook
under Elena's tutelage were far less successful. After she arrived
one morning to find that Mulder had started to boil eggs for breakfast,
gotten engrossed in a book and forgotten all about them, she made
him swear on Alex's life never to attempt to cook again. It took
both of them nearly an hour to scrape and scrub the bits of exploded
egg off the kitchen walls.
Elena took to the two easily, treating them as if they were her
sons, not seeming to mind about their relationship. What they
did not know, however, was that every Sunday, she prayed in church
for God to take pity on them and grant them a place in heaven,
despite their sins.
One day, Alex and Mulder were listening to the radio when the
announcer said that the war in Europe was over and Hitler was
confirmed dead. Before now, reports of Hitler's death had been
denounced as rumours. There had also been reports of murder/suicides
at the Fuhrerbunker in Berlin; apparently, Goebbels had taken
his life as well as the lives of his wife and six children.
Both men stopped what they were doing, Alex reading the newspaper,
Mulder a book. They both looked at each other then embraced, the
tears flowing freely from both men.
"It's over, Fox. It's all over."
It seemed as if a weight had been lifted from Mulder's shoulders.
He no longer had that nagging suspicion in the back of his mind
that the Nazis would eventually find them and take them back to
Berlin. The Nazis had been defeated, and Berlin was now in the
hands of the Americans and the Russians.
Both men held on to each other for a long time, remembering those
who had died, who had been left behind, the destruction that had
destroyed a large part of Europe. They ended the evening by curling
up, embracing each other in bed, kissing each other gently before
The next day, the word came from Grey that Alex's favour was due.
They would host an escapee couple for a few weeks while they got
settled. Elena prepared the guestroom at the end of the hallway
for their visitors. Alex and Mulder told her they were old friends
from Europe and nothing more.
Alex looked nervous. His friend did not tell him who his guest
was to be, only that they had escaped from Germany and had spent
the past month trying to get to Argentina. They were to arrive
Mulder and Alex were in the parlor when they heard the car pull
up. They both looked at each other, nervous, yet excited at the
same time. Together, they walked to the door as the knock came.
Alex looked at Mulder one more time before opening the door to
Both men embraced upon seeing each other, tears springing to their
"I thought you might be dead. When I heard of all the suicides
and murders at the end, I thought the worst."
"I worried about you too, my friend. When I found out which
ship you used for your escape, I feared for your life."
Alex looked away, not wanting to discuss what had happened on
that ship. Recognizing his discomfort, Pendrell didn't press him.
The silver-haired man beamed. He knew this was the right decision.
Now his promise to the senior Krycek had been fulfilled. Alex
had a family again.
Alex and Pendrell embraced once more, glad to see each other alive,
before pulling away. Alex gestured to Mulder, "Sean Pendrell,
this is Fox Mulder."
"Ah, yes, so nice to meet you, finally. I am sorry that I
could not introduce myself properly when I saw you last."
Mulder smiled and shook his hand, glad that Alex's friend was
still alive. He knew that he meant a lot to Alex.
"This," Pendrell said as his hand moved into the shadows,
"is Marita." Pendrell brought a blonde woman from around
the corner, her piercing blue eyes assessing the situation.
She smiled at both men and held her hand out to them. "Herr
Mulder, Herr Krycek, I am Marita Covarrubias. Thank you for letting
us stay with you."
Alex grabbed her hand and squeezed it, "It is our pleasure.
And please, it is Senor, you are in Argentina now."
Marita let go of Alex's hand as if it were on fire and grabbed
Mulder's, her expression not changing. "Yes, how silly of
me. I should learn Spanish."
"Come inside, both of you. Have you much luggage?"
"There are a few bags in the car. Fox, would you please help
me with them?" Grey turned towards the car, Mulder following
Pendrell, Marita and Alex all went into the parlor to wait for
Mulder. When he came into the room, they had opened a bottle of
wine and were relaxing. He noticed that there was something that
didn't feel quite right; there was a certain electricity running
through the room, as if during a thunderstorm.
"Fox, where is Malcolm?"
"He said he could not join us tonight, but we are to meet
him for lunch tomorrow."
"Fine. Come, sit, Fox, let me pour you a glass of wine."
Mulder sat down beside Alex on the couch, taking his glass of
wine. Alex and Pendrell reminisced, laughing out loud at jokes.
He looked at Marita, her icy blue gaze scanning the room. She
was seated in one of the wing-backed chairs across from him, Pendrell
in the other. She would occasionally glance at the two men, smiling
and joining in the conversation, but not giving any indication
of who she really was or what she was thinking. Finally, Mulder
yawned after hearing the two other men talk for hours about people
they knew. Alex reached over and put his arm around Mulder and
gave him a squeeze. Marita raised her eyebrows and looked at the
two men as if to say, "I knew it."
Alex put his wineglass down, "It's late, you must be tired
from your journey. I will take you to your room."
Mulder bid them goodnight and cleaned up after them before making
his way upstairs to the room he shared with Alex. They settled
into bed, Mulder holding Alex in his arms. He kissed his forehead,
"You're pretty happy to see that Pendrell's safe."
Alex sighed, "I tell you, Fox, it is a weight off my mind.
I was so worried about him. I am so happy to see that he is safe."
Mulder hugged him closer, neither man saying what was really on
his mind regarding Marita. He kissed Alex's hair, his hands caressing
his back, moving down to wander across his buttocks. Alex moved
his mouth up to greet Mulder's, biting on his lower lip, sucking
it into his mouth.
Mulder moved his hand down and grasped both of their burgeoning
erections, stroking them both into hardness.
Alex gasped as Mulder's thumb went from the head of one of their
cocks to the other, teasing, spreading the pre-cum around. Alex
moved his hand down to join Mulder's, stroking and caressing each
other until they both came with a soft moan on each other's bellies.
Mulder kissed Alex before cleaning them up, Alex returning to
his arms to sleep the night away.
The next day, the four of them toured Buenos Aires, not forgetting
to join Grey for lunch. He was going to take Pendrell and Marita
out on Monday to look at some apartments, neither of them wanting
Later, at dinner, Alex and Pendrell dominated the conversation,
gaining steely glares from Marita. Mulder sensed that Marita didn't
like Alex because he was always stealing Pendrell away to talk
to him about something that left both men giggling uncontrollably.
Mulder was genuinely happy that Alex was having a good time with
his friend. He wanted to tell Marita that friendships like that
didn't come along every day and she should be happy for Pendrell,
but he did not. Instead he drank his wine and ate his dinner,
watching her fume through the courses.
When the brandy and dessert came, Mulder rose and went to the
kitchen to see Elena off, making sure that her brother came to
pick her up. With her safely on her way home, he went back to
the dining room to find Marita standing before them, icily stating
that she was tired and wanted to go to bed.
Pendrell and Alex both stood, and Pendrell gave her a peck on
the cheek, oblivious of her mood as she stormed out of the room
and down the hallway.
Mulder watched Marita leave the dining room and go upstairs. When
she left, it was if the tension had left as well. Sensing Alex
and his friend wanted to talk, he also excused himself and went
up to his library, shutting the door behind him. He opened the
window and looked out at the stars, wanting to be flying up there
in his airplane at that particular moment. He didn't like the
feeling that was in this house since she arrived, the underlying
tension. He and Alex had been through so much emotionally these
past few months; they didn't need this right now. Her prima donna
attitude would have to change. With Alex and Pendrell living in
the same city, they were bound to be together a lot. Mulder shook
his head. He didn't trust Marita; she was hiding something, and
she had a different agenda than Pendrell. He didn't like her.
He breathed in the sweet night air before settling down in his
overstuffed chair with a book.
Alex and Pendrell walked out the French doors to the patio. Cicadas
and crickets sang their night-time tune as they sat in the wicker
chairs that faced each other.
"You have really made a life here for yourself, haven't you,
"The house is very nice, isn't it? Fox picked it out. He
loves books and wanted his own library. The neighbourhood isn't
too bad, the people are...well, they try to be nice. They don't
approve of me and Fox; they give us dirty looks when they think
we are not looking. There is one particular troublemaker across
the street. That Russian pig is such an asshole; he is trying
to drive us out of our home."
"He can't do that."
"Well, he is certainly trying. He does not think two men
should live together and we are immoral and wrong. They had a
meeting at his house one night to plan his strategy. I invited
him over to discuss the problem, to see if we could work it out,
but he refused. Later, I heard that he moaned to everyone how
he was not going to set foot in our house, lest he be turned into
"That is quite moronic."
Krycek spat on the ground, "Svoi mat! He is lucky that I
have calmed down since the war. They all are."
Pendrell giggled, trying to make light of the conversation, "Do
you still have that riding crop?"
"No. But if I did, I would not waste it on that filth."
They sat there for a few minutes, not talking. Pendrell was anxious
to change the subject. He did not want his friend angry; this
was supposed to be a good time.
"You are lucky to have found happiness for the second time
in your life, Alex."
"Fox is a great man, and I love him dearly."
"I can see that."
Pendrell offered a cigar to Alex, who accepted. Soon, they were
both puffing on the cigars, the sweet smoke wafting away on the
"What is with Marita?" Alex asked.
"What do you mean?"
"The last time I saw you before the war, you had a young
man on each arm and were leading them away for a night of exploration.
Now you show up, at my house, in Argentina no less, with a woman."
"The last time I saw you before the war, you were married
with a child. Then I see you running through the woods with your
lover, who was your prisoner, and then your servant, and who is
a man, no less."
"Touche." Alex puffed on his cigar.
"I like her, she's fun. She also sucks cock like a whore."
"That's nice, Sean, the first thing I do when I start a relationship
with a woman is to compare her to a whore."
"We don't have a relationship, it's just fun."
"Fun? You bring her all this way for fun?"
"Actually, we have a deal. She played my girlfriend for the
SS, and I promised to get her out of Germany."
"So it is business?"
"More or less." Pendrell took a long drag on his cigar,
blowing it out slowly. "She's fine for a friend."
"Is she going to leave you soon?"
Pendrell sighed, "Probably. You know I cannot keep a relationship
longer than a few months."
"True. Are you going back to men?"
Pendrell shrugged, "Man, woman, it does not make a difference
to me. As long as I like them, right?"
Alex shrugged and looked up at the stars.
"Don't worry, Alex, I won't try anything with your Fox. I
have to tell you though, he is a very fine looking man."
"Yes, and he is with me, don't you forget it."
"You have never forgiven me, have you?"
"Forgiven you for what? For making my childhood a living
hell?" Alex laughed.
Pendrell snorted, "Need I remind you that you were the one
who got me into trouble all the time? No, I am talking about Berlin
and our trip when we were eighteen. Don't tell me you've forgotten
about it? That was the best week of our lives."
"For you, maybe. You took my date and fucked him right in
front of me!"
"Your date? Those two Italian boys? We all left together
and were all going to fuck together, remember?"
"All I got was a handjob! You got to be sandwiched between
two Roman gods."
"You passed out! Believe me, we tried to wake you,"
Pendrell smiled. "I couldn't let those poor boys go without
getting anything, could I? I had to have them both myself. It
was such a hardship."
"Hardship? You loved every second of it."
"Yes, it was a night to remember. For me, anyway. I could
hardly wake you the next morning; you were dead to the world.
Finally, you woke up in the afternoon, all hung over but ready
to go out again. The next night you got lucky with that woman,
you shouldn't complain."
"Yes, well, it wasn't the same, was it?"
Pendrell sighed then giggled to himself lightly. "The things
we did when we were young."
"That we will never do again."
"Tell me about Fox, Alex. Is this it? Is he the one?"
"Yes, he is. I cannot tell you how happy he makes me feel.
When I am with him, it is as if nothing else matters. I told our
mutual friend that I haven't loved anyone this much since my wife,
but even that's not true. I've never loved anyone, not even Gretchen,
"I'm glad. It's about time we both had some happiness in
Mulder sat there in his library, listening to the two men talk
below. He knew Marita could not hear them as the guest bedroom
at the end of the hall faced the other way. While he was glad
that he heard Alex admit his love for him to his friend, he was
uneasy about the conversation about Berlin. Were Alex and Pendrell
lovers at one time? He had noticed the glances from the neighbors
as well, deciding not to mention it to Alex, so his temper wouldn't
get the better of him. He sighed and shook his head, it wasn't
fair, hadn't they left the fascists behind in Germany? He decided
not to listen to any more, left the library, and went to bed.
About an hour later, Alex came to bed to find Mulder reading a
"I thought you would be asleep by now, it's late."
Alex got undressed then slipped in beside Mulder. He could sense
that something was not right.
"Yes there is, out with it."
Mulder put the book down and looked at Alex. "I could hear
you from the library."
Alex's tongue snuck out to moisten his lower lip. "Yes? What
are you saying, Fox?"
"Were you and Pendrell ever lovers?"
"Lovers? No, he is like my brother! We may have shared a
few conquests, but I never had sex with him. He is my best friend,
I value his friendship, his companionship, as much as I value
what you and I have. Are you jealous?"
"No, I am not jealous, I've been thinking about a few things,
that's all. I am happy that you have Pendrell back in your life,
I really am."
"Then what is the problem?"
"There is no problem. I have been thinking about what friendships
mean and what richness they can bring to your life." Mulder
looked up at Alex. "I envy you."
Mulder stood and started to leave the room.
"Fox, where are you going?"
"I need to take care of some things. Don't worry, I won't
be long." Mulder kissed Alex and left the bedroom. He went
to his library, shut the door, sat at his small desk and started
The weeks, then months passed, Alex and Mulder fitting in well
with their business operations. Alex had hosted many events at
his hotel, winning the hearts of wealthy travelers. Pendrell had
found an apartment of his own, Marita leaving him for a wealthy
Argentinean man soon after they arrived in Buenos Aires. Pendrell
worked for Alex, helping him arrange the banquets and meetings
that were held there. The three men often did things together
socially, but Pendrell also let Alex and Mulder have their space.
Sadly, except for Pendrell and Malcolm Grey, Mulder and Alex had
no other friends. The German community had closed ranks against
them as soon as it became known that the two men were lovers,
and Alex was growing more and more frustrated with each passing
day. Finally he decided to confront the leader of the community,
one Anton von Richter, a former confidant of Hitler's.
After his meeting with von Richter, Alex went straight home, knowing
he didn't dare go near the hotel in this mood. He expected Fox
to still be at the bookstore and was unpleasantly surprised to
find him at home when he arrived.
"Alex!" Mulder smiled, delighted that they both seemed
to be free unexpectedly for the afternoon. It had been far too
long since they were able to just concentrate on each other. His
smile faded when he realized that far from being pleased to see
him, Alex could barely keep a snarl from his face. "What's
wrong? Did something happen?"
"Did something happen?" Alex repeated. "Well, now,
that depends, Fox. That depends on whether being told by a man
I greatly respect and admire that I can never accomplish anything,
never be accepted by my peers, by men who cannot even dream of
becoming my equal, so long as *you* are in my bed. Yes,"
he snarled, "I think that something happened! And there you
are, tripping along happily with that stupid smile on your face
like everything's perfect. Do you care, do you even realize, that
I have given up everything for you?! Of course not, you're happy
so nothing else matters!" he yelled.
Mulder, at first stunned by this unexpected attack, quickly found
his anger outstripping his surprise. "Well, maybe if you
stopped treating me like a not-too- bright child and actually
talked to me, I would know what was happening. And maybe *together*
we could do something about the problem. But no, you have to be
in charge, don't you? God forbid I might actually have an idea
of my own that you didn't think of first!"
"That's not true and you know it, Fox! I've treated you as
an equal even when you didn't want me to! But every time I try
to talk to you, we end up screaming at each other. I fail to see
how that could possibly be considered in any way helpful,"
"You don't talk to me; you either yell at me or talk down
to me. I think you like me being dependent on you," Mulder
snapped, totally ignoring the fact that Alex was the one who had
helped build back his self- confidence. "But if my presence
here is the root of all your problems, there's a simple solution!"
"Yes, that's right, run away. I don't need this. I don't
Suddenly realizing what they were saying, what their anger and
frustration had driven them to say, both men fell silent. Alex's
last words echoed in the room as they stared at each other in
horror. They reached for each other simultaneously, clinging to
each other as if to prevent anyone or anything from tearing them
"My god, Fox, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it. I *do* need you;
I love you. I don't think I could live without you. Please don't
leave me; don't ever leave me. I couldn't bear it if you left
me," Alex babbled.
Fox was no more coherent than his lover. "It's not true,
Alex, I could never leave you. I love you so much, please don't
send me away."
After a few more seconds of clinging to one another, they slowly
separated just enough to move over to the couch. Alex sprawled
in his favorite position, and Fox nestled into his embrace, still
shaken by their argument. Alex stroked Fox's back continuously,
needing the comfort of feeling his lover in his arms. The fear
he'd felt at their words made it clear to him that if it was a
choice between having Fox with him and having the approval of
his compatriots, he could very happily learn to live without other
Eventually Alex calmed enough to wonder why Fox was home in the
middle of the day.
"Oh, the police have cordoned off the street near the store.
They found a prostitute murdered in a nearby alley. Since no one
could get to the store anyway for a while, I decided to just close
up and take the afternoon off." He raised his head to see
Alex's face. "But you know the strangest part, Alex? I actually
knew her slightly back home." In response to Alex's clear
surprise he continued, "She worked in the cafeteria at the
base where I was stationed. I have no idea how she ended up here.
Her name was Fulton... Fuller...no, Fowley, Diana Fowley. That's
it. The poor woman had been knifed, probably by a customer who
didn't want to pay." He shook his head sadly.
Alex shrugged as best he could with Mulder on top of him. "Strange
things happen, especially during a war. We'll never know how she
ended up here." He took one of Mulder's hands in his, just
holding it. The two men lay together, thinking about the odd twists
that fate could take until they dozed off.
Alex thought that everything was settled after that last argument,
but he didn't realize how many problems Mulder was having with
the neighbors and the other Germans in Buenos Aires. Alex was
snubbed for being homosexual, but Mulder was homosexual and an
American, the enemy. He was constantly being insulted and denigrated,
and they were starting to add physical assaults. He didn't want
to tell Alex, not wanting to make things more difficult for him,
but he didn't know how much longer he could take this.
After the third day of being tripped as he walked up the street,
Mulder was ready to chew nails. He'd been in a bad mood for the
last few days because of all this, and Alex was starting to ask
questions. Today, some of the children had thrown dog turds at
him. They'd missed fortunately, but he wasn't thrilled to have
shit thrown at him.
Mulder was thinking about all of this and getting progressively
more morose when Alex came home. Alex was in an absolutely foul
mood after a day where everything seemed to have gone wrong. People
quit without notice; those who didn't were sick; and the few who
actually showed up were completely incompetent. He really needed
a drink. After greeting Mulder, he went straight to the bar in
the corner of the parlor.
"You are so lucky, Fox. You don't have to deal with many
people, not like at the hotel. I'd trade places with you in a
minute." Alex began to pour himself a drink.
"What? I'm *lucky*? Are you fucking nuts?! Oh yeah, I'm so
lucky. Since the day I was shot down, I've been thrown into a
work camp, sent to a prison, raped, beaten, sexually tortured,
abused, dehumanized, nearly abandoned, raped *again*, lost my
family, friends and home, betrayed my country and had shit thrown
at me!!! Yeah, I'd call that really lucky!! And guess what? Almost
every single thing that's happened to me can be traced back to
one cause--you!!" he snarled at Alex.
Before Alex could say a word, totally shocked by Mulder's unprovoked
attack, Mulder launched himself at him, knocking Alex to the floor
and stunning him. The decanter of whiskey went flying out of his
hand and smashed against the wall, leaving a golden stain to trickle
down to the floor. Mulder swung wildly, hitting Alex again and
again. "I hate you! I fucking hate you! I should have let
them kill you, I should have killed you myself!" he sobbed,
pounding Alex's head against the floor. He punched him again,
hitting his ribs, his chest, his cheek, anywhere he could reach.
He rolled to his feet, starting to kick Alex now, hitting him
repeatedly in the ribs, then dropping back down to his knees to
punch him some more. His fists were never still, landing on Alex's
chest, his belly, his jaw, his sides; not a single inch of Alex's
body didn't get battered. Mulder looked at him with blind hatred
and started to choke him.
Alex twitched feebly, trying to get away, but too dazed and in
too much pain to move. He clawed at Mulder's hands when they closed
around his throat, gasping Fox's name.
The nearly soundless cry of his name finally penetrated Mulder's
fog of rage, and he released Alex with a cry of anguish. He flung
himself away from the other man, curling into a fetal position
in a corner of the room, sobbing and rocking himself.
Despite the agony pulsing through his entire body, when he regained
his breath, Alex wobbled to his hands and knees and crawled to
Fox's side, too disoriented to stand. He left a trail of blood
across the room from the various scrapes caused by Fox's knuckles
and his split lip. His nose was also dripping blood, but he didn't
think it was broken. It didn't hurt quite as much as the rest
of him. He collapsed beside Fox, reaching out to stroke his face.
Mulder cried out, shaking, and raised his head to look at his
lover's bloody and bruised face. He reached out a trembling hand
to touch the battered flesh, seeing the dazed look in Alex's eyes
that told him he probably had a concussion. He couldn't believe
that in as much pain as he had to be, Alex had dragged himself
over to comfort him after Mulder caused him that pain. He pulled
his hand back, afraid of hurting Alex more. //Dear God, what did
I do?// He couldn't bear to look at Alex, to see the wounds he'd
left on him, to see his marred beauty.
Mulder turned away again, sobbing wildly, feeling completely lost
and alone. What was he doing here? Why was he here with this man
who'd hurt him so much instead of at home? He didn't belong here.
He'd come because of Alex, but why? Was he crazy to want to be
with someone like Alex? The people around them were never going
to accept their relationship, so they would never have anyone
to depend on but each other. Mulder didn't know if he could trust
Alex that much, enough to make him the center of his world. He
didn't think he could walk away and never see Alex again though.
He didn't know what to do.
Mulder rolled over, meeting Alex's eyes again, seeing the blood
dripping down his face and the pain in the green eyes. He felt
an unwilling satisfaction at seeing the damage he'd inflicted.
//Is this what Alex felt when he beat me?//
Alex stared back at him, his eyes wide with fear. Despite the
pain of his severely bruised throat, he had to ask, "Do you
mean it, Fox? Do you hate me? Because if you do, I want you to
finish what you started. Kill me. Because one way or another,
I'm not going to live without you."
Mulder ignored that last statement; he wasn't up to dealing with
it. " Sometimes I don't know if I love you or hate you, Alex.
I hate what you did to me, but it hurts to think about living
without you." He turned away.
"I love you, Fox," Alex stopped to catch his breath,
his voice still a painful rasp, "and I swear to you that
I will never hurt you again. I'd rather die."
Mulder stared at him, seeing the damage he had just inflicted
in his rage. And he knew that he didn't want to do that again,
didn't want to hurt Alex. And he especially never again wanted
to feel that guilty pleasure that he'd gotten from hurting Alex.
He could taste bile in the back of his throat at the thought of
what he had just done. They were going to get past this somehow
because he wasn't going to give up on them. The person who had
hurt him, who he hated, was another Alex Krycek, the man who had
worn the SS uniform. This Alex would never, could never, do that
to him. Mulder *knew* that this Alex loved him, and he refused
to let his memories of the past ruin their lives. He forced the
images of a tiny prison cell and being beaten with a crop from
his mind. Instead he thought of nights lying together, just holding
each other, of Alex's laughter, of Alex forcing himself to eat
something Mulder had cooked. That was the man he loved and wanted
to spend the rest of his life with. "I love you, Alex."
That was enough for Alex, and he lay his head in Mulder's lap,
nestling close. Mulder tentatively placed a hand on his head,
gently stroking his hair when Alex didn't pull away. They remained
like that for a long time, Alex drifting in and out of consciousness
while Mulder held him. Mulder kissed the bruises and scrapes that
began to form on his lover's face and neck over and over again,
wishing he could wipe away the marks of his rage. Eventually Mulder
woke Alex and urged him to his feet so he could help him upstairs.
Alex opened a bruised eye and looked at Mulder, wondering if this
was all just a bad dream. Coughs wracked his body as he moved,
blood coming out of his mouth. Mulder put his handkerchief up
to Alex's mouth to wipe the blood and spittle off of his chin.
Alex held on to Mulder for a minute until the room stopped spinning.
He could only nod his head slightly to indicate that he was ready
to try to move, and both men slowly walked out of the room and
up the stairs.
Mulder was biting his lip, and sweat had broken out all over his
body. //What have I done?// ran through his mind like a mantra
as he helped his bruised partner up the stairs. An eternity later,
they made it up to their room, Mulder gingerly placing Alex on
the bed. He ran to get a warm cloth, which he used to wash Alex's
Slowly, he undressed his lover, tears springing to his eyes when
he saw the bruising that covered most of Alex's body. They fell
in heavy drops on the bed as Alex lost consciousness again, leaving
his body limp and unmoving. "I'm sorry, Alex. God, I'm sorry,"
Mulder whimpered as he removed the remainder of Alex's clothing.
He pulled up the covers and kissed Alex gently on the forehead
before going back into the bathroom.
Mulder sat on the closed lid of the toilet, miserable and crying.
He never ever wanted to feel again like he felt today. The sudden
rush of adrenaline and almost joy at beating another man, his
lover no less, to a pulp. His tears dried up and anger replaced
his sadness, "Fox Mulder, you are one stupid asshole."
He stood and washed his face, the anger and self-hatred still
welling up inside him. He looked at his reflection in the mirror,
sneering at himself. "Fuck you." With that, he punched
the mirror, breaking it into large shards that shattered in the
sink. The blood flowed red as Mulder relished the pain, pain that
would cover the hurt he felt inside. He stood there and watched
the blood drip freely onto the bits of mirror in the sink. Calmly,
he rinsed off his hand and inspected it - only superficial wounds.
He wrapped his hand in a towel, securing it well so it would not
come undone, before returning to the bedroom.
Alex was awake again when he got there, and at his insistence
Mulder slid in beside him, and Alex snuggled against his side,
trying to get as much contact as possible. After Alex fell asleep,
Mulder lay watching him all night, never sleeping. He swore that
nothing like this night would ever happen again, that he would
never hurt Alex again.
That blow up seemed to truly signal Mulder's return to himself
because after nursing Alex back to health, he settled down, arguing
with Alex when they didn't agree, showing an incredibly stubborn
side, but never again exploding into that bone-deep rage. They'd
weathered the storm, and they were stronger for it.
One day, Mulder received a letter. He recognized the handwriting
immediately and tore open the envelope to reveal the letter inside.
A smile crossed his face and a happy sigh left his lips as he
read the letter. He looked at his watch; Alex was at the hotel
until late tonight, so he would have to tell him the news later.
Mulder was sitting on the bed, reading, clad in only his robe
when Alex entered the room.
"Hello, my love." Alex bent down and kissed Mulder on
the lips, lingering for a second. "You don't know how good
Alex stood up again, raking his fingers through his hair. "The
dignitaries from Brazil, Chile and Colombia arrived today. I had
the staff bend over backwards for them all, but nothing was good
enough. The services they want, they don't want to pay for, and
then when someone does something they actually like, they don't
Mulder looked at Alex pace the room, gesturing wildly with his
hands. "How long are they here for?"
Mulder started laughing, "You wanted this hotel so bad."
"Don't remind me." Alex stopped pacing and started to
get undressed. "Tell me about your day, let me hear some
"I sold some books, came home, ate dinner alone, came to
bed, nothing special."
"Hmmm, is that all?" Alex padded to the bathroom in
his robe to wash his face. Mulder followed behind him, leaning
against the door frame.
"Actually, I got a letter today."
"A letter? From who? Is it good news."
"It's good for me."
Alex finished washing his face and began to towel off. "What
do you mean?"
"It was from Dana."
"Dana? Who's...oh, Dana." Alex faced Mulder, his arms
crossed in front of his chest.
"How did she find you?"
"Actually, I wrote her a few months ago. Looking at you and
Pendrell reunited made me miss Dana terribly. I couldn't let her
think I was dead or missing in action. I told her everything that
happened in the war, the prison, us escaping to Argentina."
"Everything?!" Alex exclaimed, sounding horrified.
"Oh. No, not *everything*. I didn't give her any details
about when I was in prison. I didn't want her to hate you. I just
wanted to let her know that I was happy and well. What I didn't
count on though, was that she wants to visit."
"Yes, she actually arrives in two days."
"The post is not as fast as we anticipated it to be."
"I suppose you want her to stay with us?" Alex snapped.
"Yes, I do. Unless you want to put her up in your precious
hotel for free." Mulder snapped back.
"I don't know about this, Fox. I don't know her. How can
you let a stranger into our home?"
"It was fine when Pendrell and Marita stayed here. I didn't
know either of them!"
Mulder laughed, "How is it different? I think you're jealous."
"I am *not* jealous."
"Yes you are, you've always been jealous of Dana. How can
you be jealous of someone that I have not seen in over a year?"
Alex sighed and started to pace throughout the bathroom. "How
do I know you won't fall in love with her again when you see her?"
"I keep telling you, Alex, we were best friends. I only asked
her to marry me because her mother told her that men and women
can't be friends. She understood all that. We just wanted to be
together; we had no one else, only each other. I didn't even sleep
with her! I barely kissed her!"
Alex snorted and leaned back against the sink.
"Alex, for months you have been telling me that you love
me, that you are mine. Well, have you listened when I have told
you that I love you? Don't you believe me?"
Krycek looked at the tiles on the floor; Mulder was right. He
looked back up at his lover, seeing the sincerity in his face.
"Yes, I believe you. You are right, I'm being silly."
Mulder crossed the small space to where Alex was standing. "I
like it when you're silly. Your eyes get all scrunched up in the
middle, and you start to flare your nostrils."
Alex laughed, "Do I?"
Mulder wrapped his arms around his lover and kissed him. "Yes
you do, and I love it." Mulder kissed Alex again, nibbling
on his lower lip. He ground their hips together, feeling their
hardness through their robes. With one swift movement, Mulder
had both of them undone and falling to the floor.
Mulder kissed Alex one more time before spinning him around to
brace himself against the sink. Alex leaned over, anticipating
what was going to happen next. Mulder gently indicated to Alex
to spread his legs while he searched in the open medicine cabinet
for the petroleum jelly. He found what he was looking for and
slammed the cabinet shut, suddenly looking into Alex's eyes in
Mulder smirked at the reflection in the mirror, only their heads
could be seen. He coated two fingers with the lube and started
to caress Alex's opening, teasing with a few circular movements
before plunging a finger into the heat.
Alex moaned at the sensation and bit his lip. He fought in vain
not to buck back to embed the fingers farther into him, losing
the battle after a few minutes.
Mulder took Alex's movements as a sign that he was ready and started
to enter his cock into Alex's tight opening. He spread Alex's
cheeks apart farther with his fingers, giving him full access
to his ass.
"Yes, Fox, yes."
Mulder slid in to the hilt, not wasting any time. He needed to
feel his lover in his arms, crying, begging for more. He met Alex's
gaze in the mirror, the green a bare rim around the pupil. Mulder
began to move in and out of Alex, holding his gaze while he bent
forward to nibble on his earlobe.
Alex held onto the sink, leaning forward some more to give Mulder
better access. He felt Mulder quicken his pace, thrusting into
him with need.
Mulder started slamming into Alex, his arms wrapped tightly around
him, moaning into his ear. He moved one hand down to grab on to
Alex's cock, stroking it with his thrusts, using his thumb to
rub just under the head.
Alex was the first to go over the edge, his eyes closing as he
reached his peak. He came on the side of the sink, his cum dripping
down onto the tile below.
Mulder was not far behind, his balls tightening for a brief second
then releasing his fluid into Alex. He thrust a half dozen times
more before stilling himself. He rested his head upon Alex's shoulder,
his arms still holding him tightly. After a few minutes, he disengaged
himself from Alex who turned to kiss him deeply. They cleaned
up the bathroom, then themselves before tumbling into bed.
Alex watched Mulder pace in the small guest area on the tarmac
at the airport. They had been here for half an hour, waiting for
the airplane that would bring Dana. He leaned against the wall
of the hangar, arms folded, collar turned up against the wind.
Both men were dressed in camel hair coats, leather gloves and
fedoras. A cold snap had hit this July, and it was chilly.
"I hope she brought a coat. I should have told her the seasons
are reversed down here. What if she gets cold?"
"Fox, relax. You didn't know she was coming until two days
ago, you could not have reached her, even if you wanted to. It's
only cold to us because it's usually very hot here, to her it
will probably seem very warm. Besides which, she is presumably
an intelligent woman. She will know that the seasons are reversed
in the southern hemisphere."
Mulder stopped pacing for a second to think of what Alex just
said but then continued to move back and forth across the small
Alex closed his eyes for a minute, "If she needs anything,
we can just buy it for her."
"Right, you're right. We can buy her a coat." Mulder
stopped pacing and turned to Alex, "Should we get her one
now? Do you think there's time?"
Alex grabbed Mulder by the arms and looked him in the eye, "Fox,
if you don't calm down, I'm going to have to do something drastic."
Mulder bit his lower lip. He hoped Scully liked Alex; hell, he
hoped Scully still liked him! Alex was right; he had to calm down,
getting nervous wasn't doing him any good.
Alex released his grip on Mulder, who turned away and immediately
started pacing again. Finally, they could hear a plane overhead,
the prop engines droning in the crisp winter air. They watched
as the plane landed, then taxied to the waiting area. It seemed
to take forever for the props to stop turning, enabling the ground
crew to bring the stairs over to the door.
Mulder held back from running right up the stairs and into the
plane. His heart pounded as he watched the door open, and the
people started filing out. There were two women in front of Dana.
He recognized her right away, her red hair glowing in the late
afternoon sunshine. She looked up, saw him, and waved her hand
from the stairs. Mulder strode out of the waiting area and walked
briskly across the tarmac. Dana also walked quickly towards Mulder.
Alex's stomach began to turn into a big knot when he saw Mulder
grab Dana into his arms and twirl her around once before putting
her down. Alex noticed that she was much shorter than he was,
Mulder had to bend considerably to hold their embrace. He also
noticed that she was an extremely attractive woman, far more so
than he'd expected from Mulder's description of his 'friend.'
Then Mulder kissed her, on the lips, no less, lingering a little
longer than Alex thought was appropriate. They broke the kiss
and hugged again.
The passengers getting off the plane stole a look at Mulder and
Dana, giving each other knowing smiles.
Alex held back his emotions as he watched the display, clearing
his throat and adjusting his fedora. He promised himself he wouldn't
get jealous and start a scene, but that kiss did something to
him. He closed his eyes and quelled his inner rage for a few seconds;
when he opened them, they were walking towards him.
She was quite attractive in her blonde cashmere coat with matching
hat. Alex noticed her shoes matched her handbag and gloves. //She
is at least stylish.//
Mulder was beaming as he held Dana's hand and walked towards Alex.
He had been waiting for the day when the only two people that
mattered to him could finally meet.
"Dana Scully, this is Alex Krycek."
"How do you do, " Scully said, offering her hand.
Alex held her hand and gently shook it, smiling as he did so.
"It's an honour to meet you, Miss Scully. I've heard so much
Dana smiled back, but there was something in her eyes that indicated
her guard was up. Alex told himself that it was to be expected
as he let go of her hand.
They enlisted a porter to help them with Dana's luggage, barely
fitting it all in the trunk of Alex's car. Alex tipped the porter
and watched him leave with his cart. Alex closed his eyes for
a moment and tried not to think of what he had just seen: his
Fox with his hand in the small of Dana's back, leading her through
the crowded terminal, guiding her as if she was his wife. He could
hear them laughing in the back seat of the car, he to play chauffeur
to them for the journey home. He took a deep breath and finally
slammed the trunk then went around to the driver's side and got
in the car.
"Oh, Fox, really. He's not that bad."
"He's an idiot, Dana, I can't believe you let him take you
to the movies!"
"What was I supposed to do? Every other man between the ages
of seventeen and fifty was off fighting the war!"
"But, he's so....weird."
"Actually, he's very smart."
Alex pursed his lips together as he eased out of the parking lot
and down the road; this was going to be a long month. All the
way home, Mulder and *Scully*, as he called her when he wanted
to annoy her, chatted and droned on about people Alex didn't know
about, laughing about things that he didn't understand. Finally,
they were home, and he was rid of her sing-song laugh for a minute,
while he and Fox lugged her suitcases up to the guest room.
They left her to get freshened up and ready for supper, which
would be in about an hour. Elena had prepared Turkey mole for
their guest, a specialty in her family. Mulder himself watched
Elena prepare the mole, grinding the sesame seeds, almonds and
chiles into a delicious paste that would compliment the turkey.
Alex flopped down in one of the wing-backed chairs, watching Mulder
fix himself a drink.
"I'll have a double."
"So, what do you think of her? Isn't she great?"
"Yes, she is very nice, and very attractive. I do think,
however, that you two talk too much. I have no idea what you are
saying half the time."
Mulder brought over their drinks and sat across from Alex on the
couch. "Do you feel left out?"
"Yes, as a matter of fact, I do."
"Now you know how I felt when Pendrell first arrived."
Mulder took a sip of his drink.
Alex raised the glass to his lips, then put it on the table as
what Mulder said to him hit him full force. He licked his lips
and looked up at Mulder who had a shit eating grin on his face.
Alex leaned back and crossed his arms across his chest. "Why
didn't you tell me?"
"Because I knew that you hadn't seen your friend in a long
time, and I didn't want to ruin it for you." Mulder took
another sip of his drink, swallowing before he started laughing.
Alex tried to be cross with Mulder but failed miserably; he started
smirking, "That is not funny. You should have told me you
"And have you call me insecure? No way."
Alex grabbed for his drink again, downing it before standing up
to fix himself another. He pointed at Mulder, "I'm going
to get you for that."
"Oh, I'm scared." Mulder finished his drink and handed
the glass to Alex for another. He was still giggling when Scully
walked in the room.
"Did I interrupt something?" she said hesitantly.
Mulder stood to greet her, "No." He kissed her on the
cheek then sat her down beside him on the couch.
Alex was still standing at the bar, squeezing the ice tongs in
his hand so hard that his knuckles showed white. //Calm down,
Alex.// He took a deep breath then smiled, "Drink?"
"Yes, please, whatever you're having."
Alex brought their drinks over to the coffee table, sitting across
from them in the wing-backed chair. They had started giggling
and talking about people he didn't know again. They asked each
other a million questions, Scully fascinated that Mulder spoke
Spanish. She made him promise to teach her all that he knew. All
night this went on, Alex smiling at them, nodding at their laughter.
He admitted their friendship was purely platonic, Mulder not holding
back his language or bad jokes just because she was a woman. Still,
he felt the jealousy well up inside him like a sickness.
He excused himself early and went to bed, having an early start
the next morning. Later, he felt Mulder come to bed and lie beside
him, snuggling next to him, spreading kisses along the back of
his neck. He sighed and snuggled back, sleep claiming him once
The next day, Alex was out of the house before Mulder or Scully
got up. He had to prepare for a breakfast meeting of some of Buenos
Aires' most prominent businessmen, of which he was one despite
the problems he was still experiencing with some of them because
of his relationship with Mulder. He kissed Mulder on the head,
wanting so much to get back under the warm covers and nibble on
Mulder's pouty lower lip. Instead, he left the room, got on his
hat and coat and went off to work.
Mulder had his assistant Henri running the shop for the remaining
two days of the week, giving him and Scully time to catch up.
He met her in the kitchen for breakfast, Elena cooking Huevos
Rancheros, a treat that he loved so much.
"She is so skinny, Senor Mulder, are all American girls so
"Most of them."
Elena clucked her tongue against the top of her mouth and muttered
something about bearing children and needing hips.
Mulder nearly rolled his eyes but did not for fear that Elena
would catch him. She had scolded him and Alex many times for being
rude in her presence. She even cuffed Alex upside the head once
for a rude remark made at the dinner table. He watched her bustle
around the kitchen; she was beaming that they finally had a woman
living in the house with them. He knew what she was thinking,
but she was going to get an awful surprise when Scully went back
Elena offered up a small prayer to God to help turn Senor Mulder
around and marry this woman, even if her hips were small.
After breakfast, Scully went upstairs to freshen up, while Mulder
waited for her in the parlor. She came downstairs soon after.
"What do you want to do today?"
"I was hoping you would quit stalling and tell me what's
going on here."
"What do you mean, Scully?" Mulder tried to play innocent,
but she wouldn't have any of it.
"We need to talk about what happened to you and why you are
here, living with this man. And don't call me Scully."
Mulder sighed and motioned for them to sit outside on the patio.
It had warmed up considerably from yesterday, and he suddenly
could use some fresh air. They sat in the wicker chairs, facing
"You know, it's such a long story, Dana, I'm not sure you
want to hear it all."
She sat back, folded her arms across her chest and raised one
of her eyebrows. "I'm here for a month, I have the time."
Mulder sighed, "You want me to tell you everything?"
"Everything." Scully looked at her watch "You'd
better get going, you've already wasted 30 seconds."
"C'mon, Dana, it's not for the faint of heart." He looked
at her, trying to use his best downfallen expression.
"Fox, when have you ever known me to be faint of heart? I
tell you everything. I even told you about Frohike."
"True." Mulder chewed on his lower lip for a second
while he thought about the gravity of what he was about to reveal
to her. "I want you to promise to remain calm until I'm finished
the whole story, okay?"
"I promise." She looked at her watch again, "One
minute and counting."
"Okay, but you asked for it."
Mulder licked his lips and began from when he was shipped overseas.
He told her about the bombing runs that were no more than routine
flights for him, returning to England afterwards for beer and
pats on the back. The mood in England was high, almost jovial.
No one doubted they would win the war, and every man who fought
was a hero. Then the awful day came when his plane was shot down,
and he had to jump out of his burning bomber with a parachute
strapped to his back, and little else for survival. Her eyes grew
wide as he told her of his attempts to reach France, the cold
and rain hampering his efforts. He almost made it, but was captured
by the Germans instead.
They were interrupted once by Elena who brought them a pot of
tea and a plate of baked goods, before returning to her home to
cook the mid-day meal for her family.
Mulder poured the tea and continued to tell his tale. His descriptions
of the camps and the conditions made her reel in horror and wonder
aloud how human beings could treat each other this way. Then came
the prison. Mulder hesitated, chewing on his lower lip for a minute
before he told her what tortures he was subjected to and who did
it to him. He tried to make it clear that Alex had just been doing
his job, but he knew she probably wouldn't be able to understand
Mulder watched as Scully turned a paler shade of white with each
description of what Alex had done to him. Her mouth was open and
he swore she was trembling when he explained about the deals he
had made with Alex for food, cigarettes and water. She shook her
head when he described how he was turned into his servant, and
the tenderness that followed. He noticed she was now getting angry,
the initial shock over. He related how he shot the two American
soldiers to defend his lover and how Alex's friend, Pendrell,
helped them escape. Two spots of red showed high on her cheeks
as he described the horrors on the ship and their subsequent arrival
here in Argentina.
His tone changed and his voice softened as he spoke of Alex trying
to help him with his anxieties, his fears. How the nightly deprogramming
sessions had made him a stronger man. He did not leave out the
arguments, or the fights that they had as their relationship progressed.
He ended his tale by telling Scully how much he loved Alex, and
how they planned to spend the rest of their lives together.
They sat in silence for a few minutes before Scully took a deep
breath and began to speak. "Fox, while I am happy that you
are alive and well after such an ordeal, I have to ask you with
complete sincerity if you are out of your mind!"
Mulder looked down at the small table between them, his heart
sinking when he heard those words. While he didn't expect her
to embrace what he had just told her, he didn't want her to be
Scully collected her thoughts and calmed down before speaking
again. "When you told me in your letter that you had fallen
in love with another man, I was against the idea. I was taught
that men don't lie together, that it is a sin. I didn't know who
I could talk to about this, about what had happened to you. I
finally decided to consult my priest who also said it was a sin.
He told me to pray for you and to feel sorry for you, because
you have fallen. I didn't dare tell my mother; she is still grieving
for Melissa who had been killed in France working as a nurse just
before you left for Europe. She was heartbroken when you were
put on the MIA list; she sobbed for days that there would be no
wedding. For weeks, I wondered what would lead you to this decision
to be with another man. I wondered if it was something I did,
something to drive you away. Then one night, I had a dream. I
dreamt that Missy came to see me, and she said that you were safe
and in love and I should be happy for you. That's when I decided
to write you the letter and come to see you. I needed to see for
myself that you are genuinely happy, that this is not some sort
of temporary phase."
Scully stopped talking for a minute and traced the rim of her
tea cup with her finger. "My mother, by the way, thinks that
you are in a hospital with amnesia. It would kill her if she knew
the truth. Thank god she has a house full of grandchildren and
a daughter-in-law to take care of while Bill is at sea to keep
her mind off of this."
Mulder winced when Scully told him that she had lied for him.
She never lied for anyone.
She took another deep breath. "Slowly, I came to realize
that your happiness means more to me than the prejudices I may
have inside. I can accept your relationship with a man, but not
this man. Fox, you are living with the man who raped you and beat
you and kept you as a pet for his own pleasure; have you gone
"Dana, it's...it's not like that anymore, Alex is different
now." He saw her face change from composed anger to rage.
"I can't believe I'm hearing this. Fox, he tortured people
for a living!"
"It was war, Dana. If you get right down to it, the bombs
I dropped probably killed hundreds, maybe thousands, more people
than he did. So which of us is worse?"
"You were a soldier doing your duty. He looked into people's
eyes and killed them!" Like so many people, Dana apparently
believed that killing from a distance was somehow cleaner, more
humane, than up close. "But even aside from that, you fell
in love with your captor; it's not right. He forced you into this
"He didn't force me into anything; as a matter of fact, he
made it well known that I could leave at any time. I know it sounds
strange, but Alex really does care for me. Why do you think he
worked so hard to get me out of prison?"
"So he could have you when he wanted you and not have his
superiors looking over his shoulder! Why do *you* think that he
moved you into his house?"
"So he could protect me."
Scully snorted, "Bullshit."
"You heard me, bullshit!"
Mulder was too shocked to say anything. Whereas she was used to
hearing profanity, she rarely let those words pass her lips. He
knew he should not have told her; he knew she wouldn't understand.
He also knew that Alex was not going to be happy about this. He
put his head in his hands and looked down at his shoes for a good
five minutes before speaking again.
"Look, Dana, I really want you to understand. I really want
you to see that Alex is a good man. We went over everything that
happened together and agreed that the past is the past. Yes, agreed,
he was a bastard, but he is *not* a bastard anymore. He loves
me, Dana, and I love him. Unfortunately, whatever you say isn't
going to change my mind. I am dedicated to him."
Scully got out of her chair and went back inside the house.
Mulder sat there for a minute until he heard the front door slam.
He ran through the house and out the front door, catching up with
her as she put on her coat and hat. She was walking quickly down
the street, ignoring Mulder's presence beside her.
"Where are you going?"
"Leave me alone."
"Dana, don't leave, don't be this way, let's talk."
He grabbed her arm.
She stopped and looked down at his hand on her arm, then back
at him. "Fox, if you want to keep your male anatomy intact,
I suggest you let go of my arm. Now!"
Mulder quickly let go of her, shocked again that words of that
nature would pass her lips. He watched her storm off down the
street for a few minutes, until he put his hands in his pockets
and turned towards his house, noticing the curtains in various
windows along the street ruffling shut. //Great, more rumours
and gossip for them to spread.//
Two hours later, Elena returned to cook the evening meal, finding
Mulder sitting by himself in the parlor. She made him a cup of
coffee and patted him on the head, not wanting to know what happened
between him and his lady friend. She sighed to herself and offered
another silent prayer before starting the preparations.
Mulder was getting worried. Alex would be home soon, and he didn't
want to have to explain what had happened. Finally, she came back
and went up to her room, shutting the door behind her. Mulder
knocked on her door.
"Dana? Are you alright?"
"Fox, I need to think about what is going on here. I want
to be alone."
Mulder bit his lower lip again and cursed silently. "Okay.
Do you want anything?"
"No. I can't eat. Please, just leave me alone."
"Okay. If you need anything, just ask..."
Mulder turned and went downstairs to pour himself a stiff shot
of scotch. What the hell was he going to tell Alex? Might as well
start with the truth. He sat Alex down when he got home from work
and confessed what he told Scully. He was not pleased.
"What ever possessed you to tell her such things!" Alex
hissed at him. "Pendrell doesn't even know those things!"
"I wanted to come clean, to tell her the truth. I've never
lied to her before, and I wasn't going to start now."
"This is different. That was a crazy...fucked up time that
no one will understand except those that were there."
Mulder sat on the couch, his head in his hands. Alex paced for
a minute, his hands clenching and unclenching before sitting down
beside Mulder and rubbing his back. While he understood Mulder's
need to tell the truth, he was still angry at him for revealing
their private secrets. They decided that now that it was out in
the open, there was nothing they could do about it.
They hardly ate their dinner, gaining disapproving looks from
Elena, then went to bed early, the events turning over and over
in Mulder's mind, keeping him awake. Finally, he got up and went
to his library to read, falling asleep in the overstuffed chair.
Alex woke up alone in the middle of the night. He felt the sheets
beside him; they were cold. He struggled on with his robe and
padded down the hallway to where he knew Mulder would be. He shook
his shoulder, "Fox. Fox, wake up."
Mulder looked up at Alex, reaching up to grab the hand that was
at his shoulder.
Alex sunk down beside Mulder's chair and put his head on his lap.
"Come to bed; I cannot sleep without you beside me."
Mulder stroked Alex's hair, tracing his fingers along the outline
of his ear. He loved Alex's ears; they were small and tapered
at the ends, and they fit his face so perfectly. "I keep
thinking about Dana. She hates me."
"I'm sure she does not hate you. Don't punish yourself for
my wrongdoings, Fox; she is mad at me, not you."
"She is mad at me for loving you."
Alex squeezed Mulder's legs as he spoke into Mulder's lap. "I
can see why she would question our relationship; it did not start
out in a normal way. Nothing about us seems to be normal in other
"I think we're normal."
"As do I, but you know how people let their prejudices, hatred
and misunderstandings blind them."
Mulder sighed, heavy tears about to fall any minute. "I want
her to accept me, to accept us."
"Fox, you are not going to change people's attitude's overnight,
we have witnessed that first hand. Unfortunately, all you can
do is wait and hope that eventually she accepts you for who you
Mulder was weeping now, the tears falling on Alex's head. "All
I ever wanted was my friend back. I wanted what you and Pendrell
have; you got reacquainted and slid right back into the routines
that you had before the war. I missed Dana so much; I wanted to
share our happiness with her. And now...now I fear that I've lost
Alex moved up to sit in Mulder's lap, his arms around him, rocking
him gently. He kissed his hair and squeezed him tight. "Ssssshhh,
don't cry, my love." He was silent for a moment, "I
wish I could do something, Fox. I wish I could take your pain
away." Tears sprang to Alex's eyes as he listened to his
He rocked Mulder some more and kissed his forehead, "You
know, Fox, Pendrell understands because he was there. He does
not question our actions, because he had to face the horrors of
war as well. Dana, however, is just experiencing it now, as many
other people are. For the first time, people are coming home from
the war and telling their families and loved ones first hand what
really happened. It is shocking to the person who has not seen
it for themselves. We should never forget what happened, yet at
the same time, we should not let what happened control our lives.
We have understood that and moved on. You need to give her time,
Fox, time to analyze what happened to you and what you have become.
I am sorry to say though that she may never accept you, or me
for that matter; it's up to her."
Mulder sniffled and wiped his nose on his sleeve.
"Tell you what, Fox. If she wants to stay, she is more than
welcome to stay in our home; I will never turn her away. But if
she wants to go, you should let her go. And, alternatively, if
she wants to stay in Argentina, but not in this house, I have
a suite at the hotel she may use."
"Nonsense, anything to make my love happy again. Look at
you, your beautiful eyes are so red and sullen. I cannot bear
to see you unhappy. My beautiful Fox, I love you so much."
He kissed Mulder, his face swollen from his crying. "I will
talk to Dana, if you like."
"No," Mulder sniffed. "No, don't. I want to work
this out with her myself. Tomorrow I'll ask her if she wants to
Alex kissed Mulder's lips again, "I hope she stays. I know
how much she means to you."
They sat together, embraced until Alex stood up. "Come, Fox,
let's go to bed. Maybe things will be better in the morning."
Alex took Mulder's hand and led him down the hallway to their
bedroom, shutting the door behind them.
Dana Scully hid in the shadows in the hallway, tear tracks staining
her face. She too wanted Mulder to be happy, but she couldn't
let Alex into her heart. Those things Mulder told her were just
too much to bear. She silently walked back to her bedroom and
shut the door, lying on her bed until morning.
Alex had left for work early again, wanting to give Fox and Dana
some space. He hid in his office, not wanting to talk to anyone
until Pendrell came in. When he finally did, he took one look
at his friend and started to worry. Alex's eyes were red-rimmed,
his face was puffy, and it looked like he didn't sleep a wink
last night, which was the truth.
"Alex, are you okay?" Pendrell sat down in the chair
across from him, concern in his eyes.
Alex put his head in his hands and sighed miserably, "No."
"What's the matter? Did something happen to Fox?"
"No, not exactly. He told his friend Dana everything about
our life in Germany, which she is not pleased about. Now, she
is angry with him for staying with me, and very angry with me
for doing those things to her friend. She does not understand."
"He told her everything? The camps, the prison, the escape?"
"Everything. Including how we met and every single thing
that happened between us while he was my prisoner. He wanted to
be honest with his friend."
Pendrell let out a whistle and sat there looking at his miserable
friend. While they never shared the intimate details of what they
did to whom, Pendrell knew Alex was ruthless with Mulder. He had
heard that he had done terrible things to him in exchange for
food and cigarettes. When he found out that they were lovers,
he was shocked, but that wore off quickly. He had known Alex all
of his life and knew that once he had made up his mind to do something,
nothing was going to stop him. He also knew that if he loved someone,
he loved them with an intense fierceness and passion.
Pendrell let out his breath, "It does take some getting used
to, seeing you two together after what happened."
Alex sighed again, "I told Fox to give her some time, maybe
she will come around."
They sat there in silence for a few minutes before Pendrell spoke,
"Tell you what? Why don't I come over for dinner tonight,
to break the ice, maybe I can lighten the burden of you having
to talk to her."
"You just want a free meal."
"I *am* getting sick of restaurant food."
Alex grinned. He felt so lucky to have such a good friend, "Okay,
come distract us all from our problems, even if it will only be
for a couple of hours."
Mulder came downstairs to find Scully in the kitchen drinking
coffee. He had actually gotten some rest, falling asleep just
before Alex got up to go to work. He poured himself a mug of coffee
and sat down across from her at the table, sunlight streaming
through the window, making her hair glow in a red halo around
"She said she was going to start on the laundry. There are
muffins if you want one for breakfast."
"Thank you." Mulder took a few sips of coffee before
he decided to speak, "Look, Dana, if you want to leave, I'll
"Fox, wait," she cut him off. "I did some thinking
last night. When you told me all the terrible things Alex had
done to you, I was so angry. I was angry at him for doing them
to you, I was angry at you for being with him, I was angry there
was ever a war. I'm not pleased that you are living with Alex,
but if it is what you want, then I can't stop you."
Mulder looked up at her with tears in his eyes, "Thank you."
"Fox, I want you to do something for me, I want you to look
me in the eye and tell me you love him."
Mulder looked across into Dana's eyes, "I love him with all
Scully knew he was telling the truth. She reached across and squeezed
his hand for a moment, then let go. "It's almost noon, why
don't you get dressed and take me somewhere nice for lunch?"
"Gee, Scully, you're getting a little pushy. Shouldn't you
let the man ask you out to lunch?"
"Hmph, if I did that, I'd probably starve to death, and don't
call me Scully. By the way, I'm not going anywhere until you show
me every inch of this city."
Mulder snickered to himself as he finished his coffee. He then
went upstairs to change. He was glad Scully had thought about
things. That was the great thing about her, she was very analytical;
she thought things through and looked at them from every angle
before making a decision. He just hoped she wouldn't hate Alex
for the rest of her life.
They went for lunch and shopped the rest of the day, slowly winding
their way down the streets, taking their time. He wanted to stop
in and say hi to Alex, but Mulder thought better of it. He didn't
want to ruin the mood.
They were in the parlor when Alex came home from work. He greeted
them, telling them and Elena that Pendrell would be joining them
for dinner. Mulder followed him when he went upstairs to change.
"How was your day? You look terrible."
"Thank you, I love you too." Alex gave Mulder a kiss.
"I'm just tired. How was your day?"
"I see you both are talking to each other."
"She's still mad at you, but she wants me to be happy, so
she has called a truce."
"Thank god for that. I don't care if she hates me, but I
don't want you to suffer because of it."
"I don't want her to hate you, though."
"Like I said last night, she will need time."
Alex hugged Mulder, grateful that he and Dana had worked things
out. Earlier today, he had been debating whether to start working
late nights to avoid confrontation. He was glad that it wasn't
going to come to that since he didn't want to give up his time
with Mulder. "Look, I have an hour before Pendrell gets here,
I am going to lie down until then. Please give my regards to Dana
and wake me when he gets here, okay?"
Mulder kissed Alex and left him in their room to rest while he
went back downstairs. Pendrell arrived an hour later with a bottle
of wine. Mulder led him into the parlor, where he stopped still
in his tracks.
"Dana Scully, meet Sean Pendrell."
Scully held out her hand, "It's nice to meet you."
Pendrell grabbed Scully's hand and kissed it, causing her to raise
her eyebrow. He held her hand for some time before dropping it.
Mulder noticed that Pendrell was sweating and was unusually quiet.
Finally, Pendrell found his voice, "It is a great pleasure
to meet you."
Pendrell shoved the bottle of wine at Mulder and sat down beside
Scully on the couch. Mulder put the bottle of wine on the bar
and went to fetch Alex, leaving Pendrell and Scully to get acquainted,
making small talk. Soon the four of them were around the dinner
table, Pendrell being quite the gentleman, pouring wine for Scully,
holding out her chair for her when they sat down. He was practically
ignoring Mulder and Alex as he chatted with Dana.
Mulder and Alex traded glances over the dinner table, watching
Pendrell trying to woo Scully.
"Sean, that's not very German, is it?" she asked.
"My mother is Irish."
"His mother isn't Irish, she's a sadist," Alex said.
"What do you mean?" Scully asked.
"She would make life miserable for poor Sean, making him
do all sorts of chores as punishment for the smallest of infractions."
"She was very strict."
"Strict! She made Ghengis Kahn look like a choirboy!"
Pendrell looked at Alex, his eyes narrowing into a glare. He knew
he was trying to throw him off his plans to charm Scully.
"My mother was from Ireland. She met my father when he was
working there as a farm hand. When they got married, they went
back to his native Germany to live. She was a very angry woman..."
"That's an understatement."
Pendrell threw Alex a look that could have killed him. Alex took
a sip of wine and let his friend continue, his eyes mocking him.
"She was very angry for many reasons. She missed her home
in Ireland, she produced seven girls then waited five years after
the last girl before I came along. They wanted a boy so badly,
they just kept trying until they got one. My father died when
I was young, leaving her with eight children to raise by herself.
She had a lot to be bitter about."
"Seven girls?" Scully asked.
"Yes, and they all took after their father, large boned,
strong. That combined with inheriting their mother's temper made
life a living hell for us. Ours were the only two houses at the
end of a country road on the outskirts of Danzig. They had nothing
to do but chase us and torment us, until they got married off,
one by one." Alex smirked at the memory.
"It wasn't *that* bad, Alex."
"Hmph, I was black and blue until I was twelve years old!"
"Where is your mother now?"
"She went back to Ireland when the war started."
"And she is probably still unhappy."
Pendrell rolled his eyes and continued the tales of Alex and him
when they were young. Mulder was happy everyone was getting along
so well. When it was time for Pendrell to leave, he got nervous
and stumbled out the door to his car, his feet seeming to fail
him. Alex shook his head as he shut the door.
Later, in their room, they laughed over Pendrell's obvious attraction
to Scully. Mulder felt uneasy, however. Pendrell had been around,
had loved many men and women. What was to say that he wouldn't
love and leave Scully in the same way. He confessed his fear to
Alex, who held him for a moment before speaking.
"Fox, Dana is a strong woman, she won't let him do that to
"If he does, I swear, I'll kill him."
"I think she'd beat you to it." Alex kissed Mulder on
the forehead. "You know, that's how she feels about me."
Mulder thought about it for a minute, "I guess you're right.
I realize now that she wants to protect me."
"Exactly. Now, we should get some sleep, as we will have
him tagging along tomorrow for our drive in the country, we are
going to need energy for that."
Mulder chuckled, nuzzling against Alex's throat. "Just how
tired are you?"
"That depends on what you have in mind," Alex gasped,
rolling onto his back to give Mulder better access.
"I thought I'd like to make love to the man I love,"
Mulder murmured around his mouthful of Alex's throat. "I
want to show you how much I love you so you can never doubt it."
Mulder raised his head to grin evilly at him. "But don't
forget Dana's just down the hall, so you have to be quiet."
Alex groaned. "You are a truly evil man, Fox, a torturer
"I learned from the best," Mulder replied, surprising
Alex with his ability to make jokes about the subject. Alex took
that as a sign that Mulder was truly healed now. That was his
last coherent thought for some time since Fox decided to move
on by swallowing his cock to the root in one motion. He nearly
screamed at the sensation, only Fox's hand over his mouth preventing
Alex jerked uncontrollably under Fox's ministrations, already
on the brink after only a few moments of his Fox's mouth. Fox
suckled on him, his tongue never still as he drove Alex into a
frenzy. When he could tell that Alex was about to come, he pulled
off, grinning at Alex's groan and curses.
"Shh, lover," he soothed, "trust me. Hold on a
little while longer until I'm deep inside you, until we can come
together. Just imagine how it'll feel if you can wait for me."
Alex shuddered at Fox's words, breathed directly into his ear,
and he spread his legs wide for his lover. Mulder hastily applied
lubrication to Alex and to himself, then pressed again his entrance.
He stared into Alex's eyes as he thrust, seeing the flare of pleasure
as Alex shoved a fist into his own mouth to prevent a scream of
pleasure from escaping.
They moved together, Fox driving deeper with every stroke and
Alex trying to get closer still. Fox reached for Alex's hand,
intertwining their fingers, and he leaned down to kiss him, his
tongue plunging into Alex's mouth in time with his cock in his
ass. No matter how much they wanted to prolong the pleasure, soon
it overwhelmed them, and they came together, Fox driving so deep
that he thought they might merge forever.
After a few minutes Mulder forced himself up just long enough
to clean them up, then snuggled down beside Alex, his warmth and
caresses soon soothing him into sleep.
For the rest of Scully's visit, they toured around, showing her
the sights and the shops. She met their friend Mr. Grey, and he
tried to charm her as much as Pendrell did. During the week, she
would go for walks, often visiting Mulder in his shop and staying
throughout the afternoon. Pendrell heard about this and would
often come over to take her out for lunch. Mulder was amazed at
Pendrell's restraint and gentleman-like manner; he hadn't even
tried to kiss Scully yet. He knew this because she had grumbled
to Mulder by the third week that even Frohike gave her a kiss
after the fourth date. Mulder tried to hide his relief with a
laugh; he didn't want him touching her until the fortieth date!
One morning, Alex went downstairs late, to get a coffee and read
the newspaper. He had worked very late the night before and told
his staff he wouldn't be in until noon. He saw Scully on the patio,
reading a book, enjoying the mid-morning sunshine. He hesitated
for a minute before opening the French doors and stepping outside
to join her.
Alex sat down and opened his newspaper. He sat there, staring
at the page, not reading the words, //This is stupid.// He put
the newspaper down on the table.
"Dana, why don't you stay?"
Scully put down her book and looked at him, her blue eyes like
chunks of cold ice. "Stay?"
"Yes, stay. Fox is already dreading your leaving. Not to
mention that Pendrell's heart would be broken if you left."
Scully raised her eyebrow, "And you?"
"Me? Whatever you decide is fine with me." He looked
away, then back up at her. "I'm not going to lie to you,
Dana. You and I are not friends and may never be, but you are
important to Fox and that makes you important to me. I want him
to be happy, even if that means accepting your disapproving presence."
"Fox told me what happened over in Germany."
"I hated you. I wanted to kill you for what you did to him.
The only thing that held me back was that I didn't want to hurt
him any more than he had been hurt already."
Alex swallowed; Dana Scully was definitely a force to be reckoned
with. "And now?"
"Now, I am starting to like you...slightly. I see how happy
you two are together, and I don't want to take that away from
Fox; he deserves it." Scully then leaned over the small table
that separated them, "I'll tell you this, though. If you
*ever* hurt him again, I *will* kill you."
Alex's eyes widened. No woman had ever talked this way to him
before, but he didn't doubt her threat. He watched as she sat
back and crossed her arms across her chest, as calm as if she
told him the weather forecast for today.
"I am never going to hurt him again, Dana; I can promise
you that. I love him more than I have ever loved anyone."
Scully's gaze cut right down to his core, and he felt a shiver
go up his back.
"Good. I have actually been thinking of staying in Argentina
for over a week now. My mother is happy that Fox is well, and
she does not have any qualms about me being here with him. She
will never, ever know the truth, however, not if I have anything
to do with it. Yes, I'll stay, but I'm not staying here. Not only
do I not want to overstay my welcome, but I like being on my own.
I will need my own apartment."
"Yes, of course, I'll call Grey, he can help us find you
something quite suitable, I'm sure." Alex rose to use the
Alex turned to face Scully, "Yes?"
"You are quite welcome." He stepped inside and visibly
shook for a second before picking up the telephone.
Mulder was ecstatic that Scully was staying. He tried to help
her choose an apartment, but Pendrell beat him to the punch, guiding
her around, leading her with his hand in the small of her back.
A twinge of jealousy rose up inside Mulder, she was his friend,
not Pendrell's. But then he saw them together and understood the
bond that had formed between them. Soon, she was moved into her
apartment and started working for the United States Embassy.
The day after she moved, Mulder walked around the house; it felt
so empty without Scully. She had only been here a month, but her
presence had been powerful. He returned downstairs to Alex, who
was listening to the radio and reading a book. Mulder had ordered
some books in German for him, giving them to him for his birthday.
He settled down across from Alex in one of the wing-backed chairs
and started to read the newspaper.
Soon after, Alex reached over and stroked Mulder's arm, "I'm
going to bed. I think I will have a bath first."
Mulder grunted, engrossed in the newspaper.
Alex frowned, reached forward and tore the newspaper out of Mulder's
hands, "I said I am going to bed and I am having a bath."
Mulder's eyes widened. "Oh!"
Alex swiftly stood and grabbed Mulder's hand, leading him upstairs.
With their guest in the house, they had not had a bath together
in over a month. Quickly, they arrived in the bedroom, both men
flushed at the anticipation of what was to happen next.
Mulder's hand went up to cup Alex's face, his thumb dragging along
the stubble that had grown there since this morning. He smiled
at him before leaning in and kissing him gently, making the kiss
last for a long time. Hands moved across backs and down to untuck
dress shirts and up to unbutton them. Ties were undone and flung
over a chair and trouser buttons were popped with one hand, while
the other undid zippers, soon leaving each man clad only in their
tented boxers. Slowly, these were removed as well, heated skin
pressing up against heated skin, erections rubbing together.
Alex finally broke the kiss, his pupils dilated, his breathing
quick. He once again took his lover's hand and led him into their
bathroom. He turned the taps, located in the middle of the tub,
ensuring the water was warm before they stepped in. While they
waited for the tub to fill, they explored each other's bodies
with their hands and mouths, moaning when it was time to submerge
themselves in the warm water.
They washed each other, as always paying special attention to
the sensitive parts, moaning and sighing until they were clean.
Then each man sat back at opposite ends of the tub, legs down
the length, crossed over each other's to give them room.
Mulder and Alex sat there, facing each other, teasing each other
with their feet. Mulder had one foot under Alex's ass, rubbing
the back of his scrotum with his big toe. Alex had his foot in
Mulder's crotch, stroking his cock with his foot, making him bite
his lower lip and close his eyes. One look was all that was needed
to tell each man that they were ready to leave the sanctuary of
They got out of the tub and proceeded to dry each other off, rubbing
each other briskly with the towels, until they could stand it
no longer and fell into bed. There they began their explorations
again with their mouths and tongues, taking nipples between teeth,
teasing them into hard buds, stroking erections harder, marking
each other, claiming each other as their own.
"Love me, Fox."
Mulder leaned over for the lubricant and prepared him and his
lover. When he was ready, Mulder plunged into Alex and felt his
legs come to wrap around his back. Together they rocked their
way into bliss, moans of contentment leaving each mouth. Then
they were at rest, kissing each other, wanting to taste more of
each other. Finally, the kisses lessened in intensity and became
less frequent, both men smiling at each other. Strong arms wrapped
around each other and legs entwined as they settled down and into
sleep, grateful they had each other to wake up to in the morning.
THE END OF INTERROGATION