Disclaimer: All characters are taken from the X-files without
infringment meant. Suing me would be a waste of time.
I always found it ridiculous when people said Krycek had set a
Mulder by taking him to the gulag. If Ratboy had planned to get
the men on horseback, why then was he nearly in panic when thrown
the prison cell?
So I decided to write the events from Alex's POV.
As soon as I started writing, Krycek's mind was in my head and
forced me to
note down every word he dictated me within one-and-a-half days.
Kind of obsession,
Unfortunately he didn't tell me the name of the bald man in the
For I needed a name, I looked up in a dictionary how to the without
Russian, it's bjes imja. So I will call the bald Russian Dr Bjesimja,
The opinions expressed in this story are Krycek's, not mine, although
agree with him in many points.
The content of Krycek's discussion with the guard was really about
as written in my story, you may as well look it up in a Russian
They were acting like beginners. I mean, shouldn't FBI-agents
enough to wait until the terrorist had stepped out of the van
started to shoot?
Of course, the terrorists now stayed in the van, and of course
started the engine again. Damn shit, we were escaping! I hadn't
all the tips, just to get away now! He needed to know about the
the most dangerous thing in the world, but I couldn't just ring
at his door,
saying: "Hi Mulder, I have some news for you!" I had
to make sure that he
was listening to me.
Right now,I had to stop the driver. If I didn't make sure that
about the black cancer, who should prevent the coming invasion?
couldn't tell him about the aliens, if we were escaping now!
Should I sacrifice the world, or the driver of some mad terrorists?
wasn't a hard decision.
The van crashed into an obstacle after I had shot the driver.
I sat there
and waited. Soon I heard a female voice, Scully's voice, calling:
Another voice, deeper, told me to get out of the van. I knew that
Hoping he wouldn't shoot an unarmed man, I threw my gun out of
before I opened the door and stepped out. Indeed, Mulder didn't
shoot me. He
just cursed me and beat me down.
Somehow I managed to make him and Scully believe me that I had
given them the
information about the terrorists. Certainly they despised me for
my own people, but I don't care. I have more important things
to care about
than abstractive terms like honour.
Survival, for example.
I made sure they would listen to me by saying that my information
to annihilate Cancerman, the man responsible for the murder of
father and Scully's sister. I know it's a strange thought, but
Mulder family history reminds me of the antique tragedy of Orestes.
father Agamemnon was forced to sacrifice his daughter Iphigenie
to the gods,
his wife started an affair with Aigithos, in our story Cancerman.
Mulder's father wasn't killed by his wife and her lover, but by
or by an assassin in his commission. If Mulder is Orestes, he'll
kill Cancerman one day - or me.
I told Mulder and Scully about the courier at the airport and
and dangerous things he was carrying. Of course, I didn't tell
everything I knew. I had to stay important for them, and, besides
wouldn't have believed me. Aliens in oil - it sounds like a joke!
Sure, Scully is a very intelligent woman, but at the airport she
stupid. The courier was a smuggler, if an FBI-agent walked towards
calling out: "Stop, FBI, we just want to talk to you!",
isn't it clear then,
that he runs away? So shouldn't an agent with Scully's abilities
he's near, and then arrest him? Well, today, Scully didn't. She
After Mulder had handcuffed me to a column in the hall, - for
what the hell was
Scully waiting, she could have caught the man in the meantime!
- they both
started the chase. Soon they came back without the courier, but
with the bag.
They didn't understand, of course, why a granite block is important
dangerous. They would have to find out on their own, as I said,
oil doesn't sound very serious.
Angry about having all the vexation for a simple granite block,
a very >mulderish< question: "What did you get for
Halloween, Charlie Brown?"
He's sometimes so childish!
But he isn't stupid, he knew, if he took me to prison, I'd be
dead in an
instant. Instead of that he took me to A.D. Skinner.
"He'll be safe here." Skinner ensured Mulder, as he
let me in, but then he
rammed his fist into my stomach, snarling: "Relatively safe."
While I was writhing in pain, that bastard bent over me, menacing:
not even yet, >boy<, that's a start!" I was almost
expecting that he was
going to thrash me, but he just tugged me to his balcony and handcuffed
to the railings, where I had to spend the whole frigid night.
cold was biting I somehow managed to sleep.
I was a bit surprised by Skinner's behaviour. I'm used to getting
Mulder whenever he finds an opportunity, but I wasn't aware that
hated me so much, too. Some people want to kill me, others beat
me up - I
think I'll never get used to it.
The next morning I woke up, Skinner had already left the apartment.
Nevertheless I wasn't alone. The courier had broken into the flat,
for the contents of his bag. If he found me - if he found anyone-
certainly shoot me to avoid any witnesses. I still clung to my
life, it was
all I had. This morning I realized how desperate I clung to it.
Chained to the railings I had to find a place to hide from the
where? There wasn't anything on the balcony.
I did the only thing possible. I climbed over the railings - god,
it was so
high above the street! I hoped with all my heart that the handcuffs
strong enough to keep me from falling.
Afterwards I nearly find it funny. A wanted criminal hanging at
of the balcony of Assistent Director Walter Skinner from the Federal
of Investigation, to hide from another criminal who's searching
apartment of A.D. Skinner for a granite block.
Right then, I wasn't in the mood for laughing. There was an enormous
in my wrist where the metal of the cuffs cut into my flesh, increased
whole weight hanging on it. Then I was afraid to fall, and I still
the courier could find me and shoot me.
He must have heard something, because he came onto the balcony,
something or, more certainly, someone.
I had no time to waste. So with the strength of desperation I
grabbed the man and pulled him over the railings. If you have
high above the ground with your own weight and the 180 pounds
man and the only thing keeping you from falling is the handcuff
on your wrist,
you can't imagine the intensity of the pain, where the metal carves
skin. It feels as if something is cutting off your hand. (And
I know what
I'm talking about.)
After I had thrown down the courier, I was so exhausted, that
clining to the railings for a while, until I was able to think
The pain wouldn't go, when I was hanging with my whole weight
on the cuffs,
so I pulled myself together and climbed back onto the balcony,
I'd mostly recovered from my exhaustion when Mulder came to pick
That bastard! I know he saw the weals on my wrist, but as always
to enjoy hurting me by tugging on my injured wrist when he unchained
the balcony. The dead courier had already been found. Strange
appeared to be angry about me having killed the courier. Was he
should have waited 'till the criminal had shot me? Oh, now I understood:
Special Agent Mulder shoots a criminal, it's self-defence, but
if I do, it's
It was also dangerous for Skinner with all the cops around. How
tell them, the dead man in front of his apartement-house had been
down the balcony by a man Skinner had chained to the railings?
I was curious how Mulder would get me out of the house without
noticing it, and I remarked that. As an answer came just a mean,
affront about my "stupid ass-haircut". It's typical
for Mulder, if he
doesn't know what to say, he always switches over to insults.
Maybe he has the moral right to treat me like that. After all,
I killed his
father. But fits that really as an excuse for him?
We got out of the backdoor without any problems with the cops.
The FBI had already found out that the granite block indeed was
because one of the scientists had fallen into a kind of coma,
black cancer had intruded him.
At that night Mulder left me in the car for some hours, handcuffed
steering wheel, of course. I didn't know what he was doing at
the time I
waited dozing away.
When he came back, I asked him, if he was going to leave me in
the dark about
what was going on.
He just hit me in my face, and, with a sick sense of humor, said
"Yeah." I was almost starting to regret my decision
to confront Mulder with
the perilious black oil. Only almost. There was no one else I
knew I could
ask to prevent the invasion. If making Mulder see the truth meant
some pain from him before, I had to endure it.
When he stopped the car at the airport, I suspected he was going
to take a
plane to Russia. As I remarked earlier, Mulder isn't stupid, it
difficult for him to find out where the granite block had come
At first he didn't want to take me with him. Actually he told
me, that he
was going to leave me in the car and, if he wasn't back in a week,
Scully that she should bring me some water. I don't believe he
to let me wait that long before informing his partner. But I couldn't
admit that he went to Tunguska on his own. Sure, he had to find
by himself, or else he wouldn't believe it. But I wasn't sure
if he could
find it without my guidance.
He walked away and I immediately had to find a way to convince
him, that I
still was important for him. And that without telling him too
much of what I
knew, because that would only have made him suspicious.
I remembered that he couldn't speak Russian. He would need an
so I started insulting him loudly in the expressive language of
It worked. Mulder turned around and came back, bent down to look
open window of the car and asked: "What'd you say to me?"
He sounded amused.
As I looked at him incomprehending he added: "You called
me a bad name."
After I had told him, that my parents were Russian immigrants
allowed me to accompany him to Tunguska.
If I thought I had been in trouble already, I was wrong. The real
didn't start before I set foot onto the country of my ancestors.
We finally reached the forests of Tunguska. The last couple of
miles we had
been travelling by truck as hitch-hikers. Now we were walking
woods 'till we found the barbed wire fence forming the boundary
of the gulag.
Mulder started to dig a hole under the fence for he wanted to
get behind it.
I didn't consider that as a good idea, but he didn't listen to
me. At least
now he answered when I asked what was going on. He told me about
meteorite, which had fallen down onto Tunguska, and about his
theory that an
alien organism had come with it. Of course I had known that before,
hadn't known if Mulder was aware of that, too.
We sneaked into the prohibitive area and found some men who were
work in a kind of mine. A group of men on horseback with whips
over the workers. They certainly didn't hesitate to use their
secure the >co-operation< of the labourers.
Although a lot of people seem to consider me as a monster, I don't
see people suffering. It's not that I can't stand it, but I hate
Perhaps my sixth sense didn't warn me of the coming men, because
I was too
occupied with being angry. Mulder saw them first, shouting out:
I did, of course.
But if there exists a man faster than horses, then it's certainly
I slipped on the grit, and suddenly they were everywhere, surrounding
Rudely they took hold of me, tied me up and took me to their camp.
They locked me up in a sterile room with grey concrete walls,
where two men
interrogated me, after they'd chained me to a wooden chair. They
maintaining that Mulder and I were spies and - what a surprise
- they were
beating me. It happens so often, I really should become immune
to the pain..
Iswore that Mulder and I only were American tourists, who had
lost their way,
and at least for the time they were content with my answers. But
I was sure,
later they would torture me again, but less considerate next time.
They threw me into a prison cell with Mulder. Certainly I didn't
make a very
reasonable impression at the moment. Until now, somehow everything
wrong. Now, in the cell I was almost in panic. No I was in panic.
back and forth, I stammered something about: "We must get
out of here! They
will torture us!" Actually, I have no clear memory of what
I said, but I
must have mentioned the interrogation, 'cause Mulder, suddenly
pushed me rudely against the wall and wanted to know, what I had
Somehow Mulder's aggression helped me to calm down again. Perhaps
it was just
so normal for me that Mulder was shouting at me. That means, if
beating me, he was shouting.
I told Mulder what I told our enemies, about us two being American
I also reminded him, that he was dependent on me, if he wanted
to get out of
here alive. Thereupon he let me go.
I was really fed up with Mulder's violent behaviour. The last
few days Mulder
had used every single opportunity to hurt me, treatening me as
brutal as if
I wasn't human, too, certainly worse than he would treat an animal.
even tempted to find a way out on my own, to leave Mulder back
in the gulag.
He may as well perish in the dirt, I would not mind!
But one day the invasion would begin. Then someone had to save
and if it wasn't Mulder, who else?
So the only thing I said to express my anger was: "Don't
touch me again!"
Now that I was able to think clearly again, it wasn't so difficult
out a way to set us free. I wondered why I didn't remember Dr
I have known him for some years and I was quite sure that he would
let me go.
Perhaps I would even manage to persuade him to let Mulder go,
that son of a bitch didn't really deserve it.
The next time one of the guards came, I snapped at the man, that
I was in
reality on their side and that I wanted to talk to his superior.
he didn't believe me at first, but he appeared to be uncertain,
stepped back, shaking his head, saying that he didn't know me.
I insisted on
meeting his superior, he would know me, and finally the guard
Of course we had talked in Russian. Mulder, unable to understand
word, watched me with growing confusion. Certainly I could have
fear by promising him that I was going to use my connections to
get him out
of here, too, but I decided to let him stew for a while. Perhaps
beaten me once too often. I even made a little mockery of him
that I'd just told the guard, that I wanted to talk to his superior.
it was true, but it must have sounded very strange. I said goodbye
in Russian and left the cell.
The guard didn't take me to Dr Bjesimja at first, but to the spartan
of another leader of the gulag. I also recognized that square-built
had seen him some time ago, talking to Dr Bjesimja.
"That man claims to know you, Sir." the guard reported.
When his superior looked at me, I could see in his eyes, that
where he should know me from.
"Well, actually I don't know you, but I'm a friend of Dr
Bjesimja" I corrected.
OK, >friend< was a bit overstated.
"Dr Bjesimja?" he repeated. "We don't have a Dr
>God, please, let him be a lier!< Maybe, hopefully, he was
testing my reactions, looking if I'd show my real motives. What
answer, what was he exspecting? I decided not to show him how
scared I was.
"Are you sure?" I asked calmly.
The man behind the desk stared at me with a searching look. Then
he asked my
name. I told him.
"Where do you know Dr Bjesimja from?" he continued.
"That is a very long story." I said, not willing to
tell a stranger more than
His eyes narrowed in suspicion. But then he ordered the guard
to tell Dr
Bjesimja that I was waiting for him, as soon as he'd have finished
tests. Afterwards he focused his attention on his notes.
I was standing in the middle of the room for a long time, at least
getting nervous by the passing minutes. The square-built man at
the desk was
ignoring me completely, working on his papers.
Eventually the guard came back, telling that Dr Bjesimja was ready
now. He brought me to another room, a nearly comfortable one,
not just with
a desk, but also a table and two arm-chairs.
Dr Bjesimja looked like the last time I saw him, a thin, bald
man, who would
appear inconspicious if there weren't that cruel look on his face.
He smiled at me, spreading his arms to hug me very comrade-kind.
liked Dr Bjesimja, I didn't like the unscrupulous way he made
even on humans. Maybe this time they were even neccessary, as
he was looking
for a cure against the black cancer. Nevertheless I had no good
But it was no problem for me to pretend that I liked him. I smiled
very friendly, very happily - in fact, I was glad to see him for
he was my
hope to survive.
Sitting on the arm-chairs we were talking about vanities at first.
asked me, how I came here. That was the part of our conversation
afraid of, 'cause I had to find a believeable lie.
I told him about some business things I had to do in Tunguska.
He knew that
my business is always as illegal as his, and therefore I wouldn't
- at least
at free will - tell him all details. I assured him that it had
nothing to do
with the gulag and that I would do nothing to disturb his interests.
now, I had not even lied. I had never been to the gulag before,
so I added
that I hadn't planned to get into the prohibitive area, that my
and I had got lost and ended up there.
If Dr Bjesimja had any doubt about the accuracy of my story, he
"The other man, who accompanied me - he's a friend of mine."
I said. "Can
you let him go?"
"The man who was in the same cell as you?"
I nodded my head.
"I've already experimented on him." Dr Bjesimja said.
"I need to see the results of the test. And even if I wanted
to, I can't set
him free. He knows too much."
"He knows nothing!" I contradicted. "And I'll make
sure he won't tell anything."
"You can never be sure about that." Dr Bjesimja said.
"Well, we'll talk about
that later. You must be very hungry and tired. I'll order the
prepare something to eat and a bed for you."
He just didn't want to dicuss with me anymore. Never mind, I was
hungry and dead tired. But I wouldn't give up, I'd talk to Dr
The next day I found out that no one was preventing me from walking
through the camp. Seemingly Dr Bjesimja had believed my story.
I was outside the barracks, when the guards brought the prisoners
outside to force them to work in the mines. I saw Mulder beneath
men. He was looking a bit sick, but it didn't seem to be very
Still I had to find a way out. I saw Dr Bjesimja standing a few
from me, so playing his best friend again, I walked towards him.
After another comrade hug I intended to try once more to persuade
he didn't need to keep Mulder imprisoned, but I had no more time
to do that.
The security in this gulag was not very cautious, or else Mulder
have managed to leave his line and rush forwards. He caught me
beat me down one more time and threw me onto the loading-place
of a truck.
Mulder started the engine of that truck and drove through the
course the guards tried to follow us, but Mulder was driving their
truck, and their horses couldn't catch up with it.
As I looked through the lattice, which separated the driver's
cabin from the
loading-place, I noticed with concern, that Mulder was trying
in vain to
slow down the truck. The brakes were defective and the street
downwards, so the vehicle only became faster and faster. I had
something! A crash was inevitable, so I had to get off that truck
I crawled to the end of the loading-place, summoned up my courage
down the lorry.
Except of some lighter scratches I got off without any injuries.
know by then, but the worst part of this nightmare was still up
I could have traced back the road to the gulag. I should have
done that. But
I just didn't want to. As I mentioned earlier, I didn't like Dr
didn't like his methods and I didn't even like the way they treated
prisoners, although I'd never attempt to protest against it.
Instead of going back I chose to walk into the woods. I made a
mistakes in my life. This one was the worst.
As I wandered through the woods, a couple of one-armed men found
me. I had
heard that some sick minds cut off their left arms, thinking it
them from the tests.These men certainly were fugitives from the
they wouldn't be very pleased to hear that I was an acquaintance
Bjesimja, so I made another performance for them. I stammered
in Russian with
an American accent, sometimes strewing in some English words,
I was an American tourist who got lost in the woods. With perfect
panic I said that some men had caught me and accused me of being
a spy, that
I finally had escaped, somehow. I was really good, it was one
of my best
performances. They promised, that I would be save here. Very save,
Those men were weird to me, so I decided not to sleep that night.
I must have dozen off, because suddenly the men were grabbing
me, tearing off
my jacket and pinning me to the ground, while one of them started
into the flesh of my arm with a knife he had hottened up in the
I hadn't expected they would cut off my arm without telling me
why. If they
had asked me before, I could have refused. But seemingly they
that my agreement was important. They did not even think it was
to stun me.
As the knife reaped through my flesh and my bones, all I could
pain, incredible pain.
When I woke up, I was lying in a hospital bed, Dr Bjesimja standing
end of it.
"My arm?" I asked, my voice sounding hoarse.
He shook his head. "We found you too late. But we killed
If he was expecting a reaction from me, I must have dissapointed
him. I was
too tired, too sick, dizzy from anodynes. But certainly I wouldn't
a tear for them.
"Your ... friend, if he really was your friend, has escaped."
he added. I'm
sure he was curious if I would look released or angry about that.
time I dissapointed him again, for I was just falling asleep.
Mulder has gone back to the USA, while I'm still in Russia. Yet
know, what I had planned to make him see. Maybe he thinks, that
Tunguska-trip had been a trap I'd set for him, that I deceived
Perhaps one day I'll make a new attempt to tell him about the
I hope, next time it won't cost me so much.